It's Here...Wednesday Weigh-In!

Love Pats & Kisses!!! Sorry that you had so much stress and that you lost patients who you put your heart and soul into helping. Prayers...all around... When you are Home, it doesn't matter who looks in the window, especially when you are not doing anything "odd" to begin with... So if someone "finds you out"... that you are human... with human feelings and human faults... it would be my guess that they walk away feeling that they are really more similar than different to you. PS: Thank Goodness that I didn't go into real detail on my Pancake Boobs! Quirky, but Sincere.... Ro

Thanks Ro.. really! You put it so graciously about how they would be more similar than different than i in the end.. thank you.. I read that several times and it is so true.. we are all human and we all make mistakes. Again, it's how we learn from them and attempt to move on which I have done now. It takes prayer, meditation and self-reflection and soul-searching for me these days but its a good thing b/c i am trying not to numb with food and to feel feelings.. I am still a long work in progress with it but I feel I am making improvements. At least my therapist says I am Lol, from one pancake boob sister to another.. I love ya and thank you! Hugs! Mel

Melissa YOU have no idea how much it helps me for you to POST this!!! I get so embarressed at my lack of LOSING each week. I sometimes say "I forgot to weigh myself" when YES IT DID!!! I got my Fat rear on the scale and it was not what I wanted to see so I LIED!! We are ALL Human and we all make mistakes. Admitting that to ourselves and each other is the FIRST step. I can not tell you how many times I have said "I am not going back to the boards as they are ALL at goal and I am still so far away". You are such a GOOD modivator and I so admire you so PLEASE dont ever stop posting. When I said I am so happy that you posted this I do not mean I am happy you had a bad week..I am just happy that you know you can come to us for support as YOU have been a HUGE support for me! BIG HUGS Diana

Really Diana.. I thank you from the bottom of my heart. My instinct was to avoid the boards this week.. Molly helped me to see the light on this and my diet coach Britt from the nov board.. they said I needed to be clean and honest with you guys.. It's hard b/c I felt I was doing so well for the first year and now i fall at times and its hard to admit failure but truth be told we are HUMAN and error inevitably happens.. its LIFE and I need to remind myself of that often. I won't stop posting Diana.. as long as you keep coming here for support so will I.. deal? No lying necessary.. i was up eight pounds.. EIGHT.. and honestly that was from eating nonstop friday - tuesday.. eight pounds, again some of it is water weight but still.. I came clean.. u guys keep coming clean with me. There is not reason not to, nobody is going to judge you.. this board has show only compassion and caring.. I have NEVER seen anyone be mean on this board ever.. and I am so very proud of that.. what a loving nonjudgemental group of individuals we have here.. so driven and willing to share life stories.. from relationships, to other hardships to happy moments to successes.. its a fabulous family and one I don't plan on deattaching from any time soon. Thanks for understanding me.. I love you and this board! HUGS!

Diana...I consider you to be my WLS sister and that's because I'm not at goal either. I'm slow to lose even when I follow my plan to the letter. In the first 6 months after surgery, I lost 60 lbs...very slow compared to most here. Then, of course, I got pregnant and that was on hold. Here I am, exactly where I was 6 months post op. I'm not at goal either, and I suspect that it will take a great deal of time and effort to get there, if ever. I sometimes have a hard time looking at the numbers everyone has posted, and that people are getting their plastics. That's where I'd hoped to be by now. But I've learned that life doesn't always turn out like we expected or planned, or should I say, I'm STILL learning that. I try to focus on the fact that I'm healthier, can move better and fit into smaller clothes. The key word is TRY, it doesn't always work out that way, but I'm better than I was. Please, don't be embarrassed. We're here for you. (((super big hugs)))

there is no way you could have gained 8 lbs in a week....your scale is lying. Anyhow, what's done is done, time to move on to better days and do not worry about those people who want to see you fail b/c there are never going to see it. Beatriz

No slaps from me either, just hugs! So very sorry that you had such a rough weekend and so glad that you are both here with us and also able to talk things over with a wonderful therapist. It is really tough being at this stage of our recovery efforts because now people are really watching us...friendly and otherwise and like you say, seeing whether or not we fall on our faces and regain. It was so much easier to stay on track when we were newer post-ops; we had that natural motivation built into the honeymoon period. Now our bodies and lives have adjusted and we are struggling with old coping patterns and it is back to the same hard struggle it has been for most of us all our lives. We just don't have that same dogged determination we had in the beginning and we are all going to have times when we backslide on the scale. Its gonna happen and now we are facing it. I'm sorry you are having to worry about it in a public way too and hope that you won't have anything more negative to deal with. I'm certainly no stranger to ups on the scale lately and sometimes I wish that you would be slapping me around over it. (not THAT way!) I'm very proud of you for sharing this with us here, that's a huge step in this recovery process. We are all, each and every one of us, who posts our weight here trying to do the same good work and even if it feels like we are hanging on by our fingernails some weeks...we *ARE* HANGING ON on! We ARE going to do this and we ARE going to keep making progress. Keep up with your healthy food choices and even if you have munchy days, you know it won't be as bad as if you were munchy and making really bad choices. Big hugs!!! {{{{{{{{{{{{}}}}}}}}}}}} Molly

Thanks Molly! Yes it is a tough place to be in our journies right now.. a lot of learning and soul searching about our previous eating issues. I guess I never really understood just how much of an emotional eater I was till now.. surgery really shows and defines for you when you want to overeat and mine is out of emotion for sure and some boredom. If I stay busy I don't look to food, that is one connection I have made for sure. Yes and when you are at goal the determination isn't there like it was when we were trying to see the weight go down down down.. well I guess I am still wanting that to happen but you know what I mean. Thanks for saying you are proud of me. I am very lucky this board is as compassionate and understanding as they are! Yes, we are strong and we are hanging on as you say.. and we will continue to fight the good fight each and every day.. we have an addiction and we have only known food as comfort as preops so each day will have to include good rational choices as much as possible. We will fall, no doubt but we have to dust ourselves off and get back up and with all of you here it makes that brushing off so much easier. I thank all of you.. totally from the bottom of my heart.. (weepy!) Thanks Molly! Love you!

Melissa...what an awful weekend you had...I'm so sorry. Forget the other people...easier said than done, I know. But honestly, people look to find failure in others so that they don't have to recognize their own shortcomings. I can hardly believe that a weekend here or there of reverting back to past behaviors can be considered falling on your face. And even if it WERE, the point is, you got up again, dusted yourself off, and proceded with dignity. It's always a choice, we can stay down (and let others then walk on us) or get back up and keep moving ahead. You always choose the latter. I'm very proud of you, for what that is worth. And whether you're 142, or 242, you are a great inspiration and supporter of others. So thank you for that. "didn't' really eat too much "junk" other than a couple cookies (bad mel!)" Better a couple of cookies than an entire bag, yes?? Please don't beat yourself up over it. Tomorrow is a new day, as is the next, and the day after that. And did you know that I would NEVER have been able to say that to you, if you'd never said it to me?? You'd never call us terrible for it, so please, be forgiving of yourself. Doesn't mean you have to say "oh well" and throw it all out the window...but then again, you know that. I'd gladly hold your hand, no slapping at all. ((((huge hugs))) and I hope this weekend is better for you.

Thanks Shawn! I am gonna have to realize that there will be weekends like this and I need to learn to handle it better. They say us as nurses have to distance ourselves emotionally.. I could do it better on floors that didn't have patients that stuck around so long but on my unit they are there for a while and we build relationships and rapport with people, its hard not to get attached. You hug them.. u cry with them, u celebrate with them. My job is amazing.. I just love being a nurse. It is hard though when you lose one, especially unexpectedly and it doesn't happen often.. seems to go in spurts then we are fine for a while. How are you doing? How is Sydnie? I sent ya a card, not sure if it arrived yet or not.. wanted u to know I was thinking of you lots and praying all is well. I saw the most recent pics of Terisa on your profile, she is such a doll baby and has so much precious hair on her head.. what an angel you have there. I hope you are feeling good, make sure you are taking care of yourself in the process so you are meeting your needs also. Hugs and have a terrific weekend sweetie.. thanks for supporting me through the ups and downs.. really, it means so much you just never know. *hugs*