Wednesday Weekly Weigh-Ins! 4/2/08

Wow Melissa! First, my eyes never get crossed from reading your or anybody else's posts no matter how long! I'm so proud of you for 'coming clean' and using this board for it's real purpose...support! You have worked so hard to get back on track and suffered so much during your difficult time that my heart just ached for you. None of us got here (being post-ops of any stage) by being superstar dieters...we all had issues and the surgeon didn't cut them out of any of us along with altering our anatomy. So now we have these great tools in place but we have to be humans and children of God and help each other. We've all leaned on you for support along the way and if any of us can help you we are here for you. I know I need you and everybody here too and have come here to air my own dirty laundry time to time and will many more times in the future. (I mean, you all must read most of my daily eats posts and wonder why in the world I bother sometimes, I eat so badly.) Today I'm going to have to go out to get some shoes to go with what I'm wearing to a wedding Sat. evening (that is a whole post on it's own... ) and I promise to stop by as many bookstores as it takes to find that book. Today! I still haven't finished reading Mindless Eating but i just have such a hard time sitting down to read. I either fall asleep or get sidetracked with other duties or the tailbone doesn't let me. You made so many good points in your post. I definitely would like to be in therapy but can't afford it yet. Till then I do try to read thought-provoking things on the internet, work through issues in my head on the commute to work daily. There are many, many times I'd much rather listen to the radio but since it is broken and too much $ to fix (old Volvo...'nuff said) I use the half hour to try to better my thought processes. Some days it works well and even if it doesn't at least I'm still trying. My Prozac is the second most important medication I take every day. First is my bariatric vitamins...the nut. and surgeon have hammered it in so many times about how crucial they are that I'm not gonna risk my health by slipping up on it. But without the Prozac I'd be going down that slippery depression slope and never get control again. Too many years I lived with depression that ranged from low grade to severe and wasted too, too much of my life. I want to do what Dr. Rawlins says and LIVE the rest of my life. It is too short! If any of you have ever had a near-death experience before you know exactly what I mean. Your priorities change for the better. So I'm a very proud member of the Prozac Nation. Yup! Dealing with stress....well, I posted about my munch-a-thon recently when I had the big stress from work. That was so scary...I just couldn't stop myself. At least now I'm old enough to know that it isn't safe to allow myself to get into territory like that. Finally I'm developing enough of a backbone to say 'no' and not let others control my life just because I'm a people pleaser. That's a tough order for a pretty meek person like myself. My whole life has been programmed by doing what everybody told me to do, being a good obedient little daughter and wife. I'm not being disobedient now just trying to take care of me first. It feels so wrong to say that but there again is that bad training in place. I'll get over it. ;) Today has been another wonderful morning and I'm enjoying my vacation so fully! Sleeping in is heavenly and then getting to eat what I want to eat fresh and hot is a real treat. Today was a rule-breaker...coffee with breakfast rewarded by my ulcer grouching at me. Oh well, it's worth it for this little dear indulgence. I did want to come here today to announce a kewl NSV and wonder if we would be able to sustain a 'Today's Triumph' post like our daily eats and moves. I actually had a piece of Hershey's from DS's old Halloween stash in my mouth and spit the whole thing out before swallowing. Maybe it was only 50 or 60 calories but I realized how worthless it was on so many levels...it would just make me want more sweets, not how I could best spend the calories, I have my own fresh and legal chocolate and why in the world would I want to sneak-eat when I have vowed to get rid of that habit? You know how people say nothing tastes as good as thin feels? I don't really take that one to heart, it doesn't 'do it' for me but what does is nothing tastes as good as being proud of myself feels really DOES. If you or anybody else here is proud of me that is really nice but if I'm not proud of me then where am I? So, better numbers this week! Like you, I'm getting them back where they need to be and am not in a rush. HW: 268 SW: 230 LW: 136 CW: 134 yeah!!! Have a great week. I love you guys!!!!

Hi Molly! Thanks for the awesome reply to my post. I hope you found some awesome shoes to go with that dress of yours! I would love to see u in the dress! Picture time! I really do thank you for being there for me.. you have no idea just how much you have helped me see the light at various times, you keep me driven and motivated. We all have our times of "munch" land I think.. but its how we get past it and move on that makes all the difference so it doesn't get out of control. Hope you have a great weekend.. pssst pictures, pictures! Hugs, Melissa

Melissa...I can't thank you enough for this post. I really believe it was put there for me today. I can't write a bunch since Sydnie wants to eat, but then, maybe I don't need to as your post says it all for me. With the exception that I'm not back on track. My eating is out of control as well...and yesterday was a HUGE eye opener for me. I couldn't get enough even though my stomach was full. My mouth was telling me MORE MORE MORE. I stopped tracking the numbers but I'm going to say easily 3000 cals if not more. Not too much protein in there either. I did realize that it could quite possibly be because AF showed, but that's no excuse. I NEED to be in control no matter what time of the month. I'll update more later but really wanted to thank you if nothing else. HW: 265 SW: 240 LW: 177 CW: 179

I am glad this post helped you Shawn! Hang in there, getting back on track takes a clean slate and low stress and right now its gonna be hard with Sydnie and the others needing you but do the best that you can. I know it, 3k in calories is easy for me to do, I know that shocks some but it is.. and that isn't even complete junk food for me as I do dump so I won't go for full sugar but I eat lots of good for me foods and still get the numbers up there.. sad sad.. AF makes me ravenous.. I hate her visits. I wanna kick her to the curb! I hope things are going well, take more picks of sydnie when u can!! Have a terrific weekend! Hugs, Melissa

Melissa, Congratulations on getting back on track!! I know you will make your goal again you are a very determined woman and I believe in you. This week has been a little better for me. HW: 340 SW: 330 LW: 189 CW 188 Have a Wonderful week everyone Mini Me

Thanks for posting this Melissa..You know I have continued to struggle and I so needed to read this. I am going to go buy the book you mentained. I so agree with a lot of what you said. I have been so good about going to the gym and last week I had my big gain that I still can not figure out WHY so this week I have eaten so I deserve a gain but have stayed OFF the scale. Tomorrow I will be at the GYM at 530 and I know it is what I need! What are Vitamuffins and where do you get them? I soo wish I liked coffee or tea but I just dont Thanks again for posting this. Diana

They are muffins that are 100 calories or less, high in fiber and packed with vitamins and nutrients. www.vitalicious.com. hang in there beautiful, I do understand.

We all go thru this at one time or another and what I have done is to take one day/ one meal at the time and try not to beat myself up over it. I know that after WLS I make better food choices(most of the time) and being positive hepls me a lot. Coming to OH is algo a great help, realizing that I am not the only one struggling gives a great opportunity to learn from their mistakes and solutions. Thank you for being so open, you are helping each one of us and at the same time helping yourself. I am going to print your post and add it to my WLS bible. Remember that we are human and we make mistakes but the best part is to learn from our mistakes and move on. Life is GRAND!!!!! BTW, here they are: SW: 320 LW: 175 CW: 175.5 I gained .5lb and that's ok, I want to be around 175 Lbs but nothing less. Take care Beatriz

Life is grand B and your pics are amazing! I love that u shared them with us. All your points you make are so true.. thanks for sharing your philosophy and even tho we aren't perfect we are far better than we were proep, very true! Great job maintaining and see you next wed for weigh ins Have a terrific and wonderful weekend! Hugs, Melissa

Love your post so much Melissa you know it is very encouraging to hear that other people have the same struggles everyday eventhough you are at goal and i still have quite a ways to go today i am going to post my weight for the first time i have never actually put my weight out there so here it goes HW: 534 SW: 517 CW: 380