What did ya eat and how did ya move today? - Friday

Hi Gang.. TGIF! It's supposed to be "blizzard" like here tonight with the winds.. so glad I am tucked in my house and not out there. This weekend is supposed to be downright cold but no snow.. so I am happy for that! Just have to stay bundled up. I have been having some really "off" days this past month with eating. Partly due to the hypoglycemia (trying to figure out weight training etc and upping carbs) and also trying to take care of my anxiety (as per the words of my doc "ocd tendencies") with medication/therapy. Well after trying the zoloft I can officially tell you that it totally DOWNS me.. zombies me out. I have been off the stuff for two days and I ***FINALLY*** feel like the old me. I was feeling so dang drugged that I could hardly work out without puttering out and I just felt beyond weak and LAZY.. like I was being physically forced to chill out. I HATED IT! Sorry.. but I did! I feel like I am BACK and can finally just go on with my life some. Doc wants to try wellbutrin and put me on some hormone replacement therapy (Not getting a period anymore and lack labido) he thinks a different drug would be better and also some estrogen to balance me out (he thinks I have depleted all my estrogen stores with the fat loss). Well guess what.. I don't wanna add any more drugs to my system after that. I restarted the ring this past month and I hope that it will just work itself out (please say a prayer for me!) and all will be good... b/c the last thing I wanna do is try something else. Plus he said the estrogen would put on 15 lbs minimally in fluid.. hello 15 lbs!!! No thank you! Soooo today I have felt much more on track.. I want to share what I ate.. I am proud of myself. I also cleaned the heck out of my house today and got things organized for the cruise (still have tons to do next week but I got a good head start).. the new found energy is awesome! If that means I have some anxiety to go along with it.. SO BE IT! Here is my damages.. Breakfast: 2 servings of egg beaters, 2 oz of lean ham steak, 1 WASA cracker with a tsp of SF Strawberry Jam. Lunch: I made homeade chicken parmesean using Kay's Naturals parmesean chips ground up in magic bullet mixed with grated parmesean cheese. I dipped my chicken into egg beaters then rolled it in my mixture and sprinkled some oregano on top. I then baked it and broiled it towards the end. I added NAS spaghetti sauce to it (that i added some salt and splenda to) and then had a side salad with romaine, chicke peas, fresh mushrooms and red onion with balasamic light vinegerette dressing. I haven't cooked in forever.. i had energy to do it! I had about 4 oz of chicken and nice side salad. Dinner: SB Cinnamon Creme Meal Replacement Bar Snack: EAS Shake Going low cal today.. yesterday was way above and beyond my calorie limit so I feel ok doing it today. Cals: 938, fats 29, carbs 77, fiber 15, protein 99 Perfect numbers.. and for movement cleaning house, cupboards, cooking and packing.. no running today. I did go to the gym for 2 hours yesterday though.. i was just starting to feel better yesterday.. it was tough but I did it. Today I feel like I could do 4 hours.. I love being back! Don't I sound like a looney tune? Sorry guys.. im just so happy! NO MORE ZOLOFT EVER AGAIN!

Started the hormone meds for infertility this week, and they just make me not hungry during the day, then ravenous about 11pm. Today, since I'm on day 4, has been much better, other than the 1 dang Hershey bar I ate (it was either the happy endorphines or I was going to mutilate a co-worker). Last night at 11pm, to my husband's vast amusement, I went and got 8oz of milk. Chugged that down in a bit, then about 10 minutes later he heard rustling in the kitchen again.. and I waltzed in with a Special K 90 calorie snack bar, AND a 100 calorie pack of Hostess mini-cupcakes. I ate one cupcake, let him have the other two, and then my snack bar. Commercial came on, and husband looks around, I'm missing again.. and wander back in with 1/2 cup of homemade chicken veggie soup. Needless to say, his jaw dropped to the floor, then he started laughing. I hit him with a pillow.. he may have fell off the bed, but I promised I wouldn't repeat that rumor.... But, I lost 3 lbs... and another 5 lbs before that. Stupid hormones! Today's eats: B: picked at about 1/3c of NF cottage cheese S: SF hot cocoa (I can't stay warm anymore) L: 1/2 c of chicken veggie soup S: Hershey Bar (bliss) D: Salmon croquettes with a serving of penne pasta (hubby made it) LS: About 10 Lime Chili almonds Saturday is cleaning day for Freecycle. Got tonnnnnnnsss to get/give away to my local Freecycle group.

Busy day, didn't get this logged here. Eating was awful yesterday, I grazed and grazed. Some days this is so hard for me to control. There are things that must not have gotten written down because I doubt there's any way my calories came out this low. --nf, sf soy latte 1) 2 serv. egg beaters, 14 cup salsa 2) 3rice cakes 4) 1 slice black rye bread, 1 oz. turkey, 1 oz. pepper jack cheese, 1/2 cup cooked apples, 1 squirt whipped topping 5) 1 mini bag popcorn 6) 1/2 cup nsa ice cream 7) 2 mozz sticks 8) 1 bag kay's naturals lemon herb crisps calories: 940 carbs: 111 fats: 30 protein: 63 Moves were great...half hour on the stair stepper! Woohoo at last!