Happy Tuesday Weigh-...

Hi everybody, pretty busy today but no change in my wt as far as addiction.. I have never had an addictive personality, however I still like food just sometimes it doesn't like me. I have changed my way of thinking about food for sure. But no addictions here. HW:280 SW: 276 LW: 168 CW: 168 HAve a great week....

Hi Melissa and everybody! The weight was disappointing this morning as I knew it would be. sigh... I'm getting my hopes up to hit 100# lost by my 1 yr. checkup on Dec. 5th and that is probably not realistic. I've been doing spot exercises for my waist every morning while I'm getting dressed and as always keeping very busy at work and home. Guess it just isn't enough and I'll have to get back to more formal exercising. HW: 268 SW: 230 LW: 132 CW: 135 (#3 gain...ugh!) Maybe the gain is water and maybe it is just my carbs being too high even though my calories are still right in line. I don't know and I'm so tired that I almost don't care today. Truck days at work are always so hard on me physically and lately, mentally. It's probably only from the amped-up stress levels at home so I'm trying to handle it well. Transfer addictions...still battling the food thing as you can see by all my posts where I show the grazing. Overall I think I'm learning good things and mostly winning although it may not look like it. Shopping has become a problem that I'm trying hard to overcome. Working in retail does not make it easy. Ways i'm working at overcoming it...a lot of self-talk, journalling, keeping out of the kitchen by getting online with you folks and strangely enough: trying on clothes. The clothes thing helps reinforce that I've lost weight and want to maintain the loss, gives a nice little spike of self worth and also shows me that I really don't *need* more clothes or household goods or fabric or whatever. It's an ongoing battle. Molly

Hey Molly! Any time I stress.. my body holds onto fluid. Remember before my Halloween party it was up down the same couple of pounds.. then finally once it was over.. bam the weight started coming off.. it was fluid. Cortisol is a finicky stress induced hormone.. read up on it.. google search it.. with cortisol excretion comes water retention. Trust me.. u haven't not eating 3500 addiction calores x3 to gain 3 lbs.. u are doing great. This soon will pass.. *hugs*

Hey Ya'll! Wow Steve, you are so cool to talk to openly. I think it's wonderful that you are feeling more 'alive'. Your candor is so refreshing. Here are my stats before I forget: HW: 285 SW: 277 LW: 161 CW: 161 Goal: 177 (personal) not sure what my dr.'s goal is for me. As to transfer addictions - I am finding that there are just some things that surgery doesn't fix. Many of us probably have core issues (beyond physiological issues) that caused us to seek food. For me it has been my body image. I have never been diagnosed as having dysmorphia, but when I began to read up on anorexia/bulemia and other eating disorders, I found a lot of similarities to my own personal view. I have to remind myself that what I see in the mirror is truly an illusion. Because I have a skewed view of myself, what I see is not reality - it is a projection of my inner self. I rely on my husband and son to give me an idea of what I look like. I really want to have plastic surgery to remove all the skin on my stomach, and I am determined to have my boobs augmented because I cannot imagine living with what I have right now - ick! The thing is, I KNOW that it wouldn't be a good idea to even think about plastic surgery right now. I am still going through a HUGE transition mentally, and physically. I understand why they tell you that you need to wait at least three years. I want to feel sexy and attractive and strong. I want to give my husband what he deserves - a vibrant exciting sexy partner who is shamelessly in love with him and wants him as much as he wants me. I want to look men in the eye when they look at me; and I want to feel empowered around strong beautiful women. It's inside me - I know it. ... uh sorry ya'll... I forgot for a moment - this is the tuesday weigh in post ... not the intense-open-up-your-heart-and-share-too-much post... But Steve started it!!! Yeah, I have a transfer addiction - self obsession and too much intensity! - Kerdeeya

Hi Keerdeeya! Thanks for also being so open.. i think in time u will find this will get better for you.. have u thought about therapy? As you can tell I am a therapy pusher.. i think its a great way to go.. I am getting it myelf. *hugs*

How about when I am finished with my masters next year I can be everyone's therapist on this board??

I'm in!!! ~

I'm in too!

me too!

You will make a great therapist!