What did ya eat today and how did ya move? - Friday

Hi Everyone, Happy Friday! It is almost the weekend for all of you! So how did ya do today??? Here is what I ate today.. one part of it I am very unhappy with myself... but ya know what, I feel I need to be honest and tell you all. I don't plan on telling anyone else right away b/c I just want to start here with it and leave it here, and move on...I am following my own advice. I will put this mistake into my days totals and "make it work". It is ok.. it is ok.. B: Molly's pumpkin protein bar with 1 tbs of ff/sf maple cream cheese 'frosting' L: Mexican stew 1 cup - 4 oz chicken, 1/4 cup kidney beans, some olives, ff cream cheese, salsa, onion, etc.. S: 1 protein pumpkin pie muffin with 1 tbs of ff/sf maple cream cheese frosting AND.. (this is where it gets really ugly people) I made oreo cupcakes for work this weekend and for my husband's family. One of the edges broke off and yes I put it in my mouth, it was good.. I ended up eating the whole cupcake minus the frosting This is so not like me, not sure WHAT I was thinking. It had real sugar and butter in it too. I am very very sleepy and my heart is racing.. I feel just ick right now. kinda sweaty.. i spose this is what dumping is like.. maybe a mild form. Enough to keep me on track though. I figured out the nutritional value of this ONE cupcake without frosting.. cals 227 (OMG), 12 fats, 25 carbs, 3.16 proteins. HORRIBLE! I feel like puking.. but ok.. like I said I am moving on. D: Husband wants to go out, of course right now I could not eat another thing the rest of the night and be ok with that.. so we will see. Here are my totals so far. I am still in the game for the day even with the darn blasted stupid cupcake (that wasn't worth it btw). Cals: 781, carbs 70 (ouch!), fats 22, protein 74. Not much room to move there. I guess I will get a good piece of meat and salad or nonstarchy veggie in and call it a night.. wow. Gonna run 2 miles on the treadmill if I get my strength back, feeling weak at the moment. I am sure it will pass. So tell me, how did you do today, hopefully better than I... *hugs*

Thanks for the Honesty! I sure hope that you will be feeling better soon. The calories are not that bad, when you consider that some of the protein bar**** that high. Just don't want you to be sick. Ro I had a pretty decent day food-wise, but didn't log-in the numbers yet. I am way behind on drinking water today...only 3 cups so far and it's dark outside already. Sip! B: Mixed salad, 1 babybel cheese, 2 oz lean ham, Wishbone Asian spray L: 2 oz chicken thigh, 2 oz brown rice, 2 oz beans in cream cheese salsa sauce S: 1 Fudgsicle, Quaker Choc. Rice crisps D: ? Probably Ham and Yams w/ a side salad

Thanks for understanding Ro. I felt crummy for about 30 mins then all the sudden I just felt better, like a light switch it was weird. Don't want to go through it again though. Ya live ya learn. My totals ended up good for the day considering. I think anyways, plus i ran 4 miles straight on the treadmill.. yes 4 miles! Almost one hour.. i was working like a dog b/c I did that to myself, but i need to realize this isn't good behavior either.. like I am punishing myself. I like exercise and I shouldn't use it as a way of punishment. Now of course my legs just ache like the dickens.. oh Melissa, ya need a therapist and I am gonna get one! I have name and number and just got to set it up. I will do it when i get back into town, will be gone visiting family again next week so won't be around much. So I will check in when I can! Thanks for the message about how ya miss me on the eating disorder board. Honestly I didn't feel people were responding well to my posts there so I kinda gave it up, plus I can barely keep up with this board and the RNY board and my emails as it is.. here it is 215 in the morning and I am trying to respond to everyone. I love it don't get me wrong but I had to kinda stop that especially since I wasn't getting the response. Sorry to abandon ya there.. im still here tho Have a great weekend and I will pop in when I can next week! *hugs*

Hi Melissa, CONGRATULATIONS!!!! Finding out you do dump is the happiest miserable experience you may ever have. Write this one down in a diary somewhere and keep it safe! Don't ever forget this horrible feeling...it truly, truly helps keep you on the straight and narrow. I can eat up to about 9 grams of 'real' sugar in products like cereals. Beyond that...no way! I've never tested and only know these limits because I just stick to my usual half-cup serving size (because of my pouch) and volume-wise couldn't handle more anyway. Luckily natural sugars like those in fruits don't make me sick. Whew! What a tremendous gift you have been given today!!! This will help you stick to the sugar free products you are already happy with and feel no or little deprivation from passing up licking your finger or catching future falling crumbs. Luckily for you, this is your first and probably last dumping episode. Mine have all been from (over) eating sugar free products. So I usually have a healthy respect for even them. Today, however...i was not so wise. While grocery shopping at a big one-day sale for pumpkins and apple juice (110 calories per cup, yow!) I 'treated' myself to some locally-made sugar free chocolates. Ate one in the car on the way home. Yum! At another one an hour later. Hmm...tummy ache. Ate ANOTHER one a half-hour later and then spent the next three hours thinking I was going to die or was having a heart attack or a monstrously bleeding ulcer. My hypothesis is that there is something in some sugar free products that irritates my pouch, anastamosis, upper intestines AND makes me dump for a bonus. (!) At least I can sit up straight now and take normal breaths again. For an hour or so I debated asking DH to take me to the ER. But who am I kidding here? I know what it was. (the bathroom quotient hasn't hit met yet, I can hardly wait) I'll do eats and lack of moving in another post. I just had to congratulate you on your newly discovered dumping status. HUGS! Molly

Thanks for the congrats on the dumping and not getting your RNY whip out on me! Not that you would ever do that Molly but I was quite ashamed to post this. Honesty is the key though, you all are my family and I know I can trust you and come to you whenever I need you and there is such security and satisfaction in that. Thank you so much! I am so glad that i did get a crummy feeling off it. It just kinda hit me about 20 mins after I ate it and lasted about 30 mins then I was good as new again, quite strange, can't imagine if I had the icing too, it was made of pure powdered sugar and butter.. wow.. woulda been even worse I imagine. Interesting how the SF items even get ya, it does if it has SA's in them for me thats for sure, with bloating gas and abdominal cramping etc. Funny how this surgery keeps in check doesn't it? I am glad it does.. so glad. Have a great weekend! I will be in KC next week but will pop in and out as I can! Wish me luck with the family.. it might be stressful again.. argh! Hugs, melissa

Today was very good until the handmade chocolates. I'm guessing they are at least 70 calories apiece (no info available on them so I'll guess high and say 80). They are really fine quality local chocolates and it makes me so sad not to be able to eat them. (Sheesh, they were $8.99 a pound too. Luckily I only bought six pieces...dh gets the rest!) 1) protein cocoa (1 packet diet cocoa, 1 scoop Nectar latte cappucino, 4 pumps sf syrup) 2) 3/4's homemade chocolate-banana protien bar 3) lovely salad of romaine lettuce, grape tomatoes, fresh mushrooms, 2 oz. chicken, 2 strips turkey bacon, 1 hard boiled egg, 2 T ff ranch dressing 4) the three sf candies from hell 5) half a cup nf cottage cheese 6) single serving bag of Kay's natural protein chips (felt like I needed something 'bready') calories: 983, carbs: 54, fats: 18, protein: 91 The fats are probably more like 30 or 40...the chocolates were very silky and that may be part of the dumping equation. I doubt they had many carbs though or even any protein. As for moving...only a four hour shift at work today but I went at it hard and a good thing too. Once I got home and started getting sick that was it for me today. Have to work again in the a.m. so I think I'll just write off the rest of the night and go to bed early. If I paint (son's room) tomorrow after work does that count as exercise or do i still have to do formal exercise? Molly

Friday i had 2 protein bars --one for breakfast and one for lunch. Went to a u-verse launch party Friday night and they had Fajitas. so i had some beef fajitas (no tortilla) and some of the lettuce and tomato fixings....... i did not write down the whole night --i feel like i had a snack later on that night but i dont recall what it was Anyway i think that i did well.......i did 3 miles on the treadmill instead of the 2......for 30 min i was on a conference call so i did slower hills and the rest was fast.....total of 55 minutes Saturday was not as good and Sunday was a GRAZE Fest! so not a great weekend for food consumption.

Great job on the exercise Dawn! You go girl!