Update on the pregnant chick-FINALLY

A few of you have been asking for an update, so I suppose it's time. I know I promised to share with everyone, especially those who are interested in being pregnant eventually. That's pretty much why I haven't posted recently, as I don't want to scare you off. I really hate being a whiner, and complainer, so I've steered clear. Honestly, I'm struggling. I know this should be an exciting and happy time, and frankly, I'm not finding it to be so. I don't know which is more difficult, the physical or the mental. So far I've had "all day" or at least most of the day sickness. Not really throwing up...but soooo nauseated. I've had a few good days, so I thought it was over. No such luck. And I'm soooo incredibly tired. I know my vitamin levels are fine, so that's not it. I think it's mostly from not getting much uninterrupted sleep. Having to get up to pee at LEAST 8 times a night, plus trying to get comfortable. I'll get too hot or too cold, have trouble falling asleep then when I'm finally able to, it's time to get up to pee. Plus because I'm so tired and nauseated the majority of the time, I'm finding no time to exercise regularly. I try to compensate some by parking further away from doors, so that I'm forced to walk...things like that. But it's just not the same. Mentally, I'm having a hard time with my weight and eating. I've not yet gained anything, and am actually down 15lbs from my pre-pregnancy weight. So far this month I've been holding steady at 174-175 depending on sodium intake. I'm incredibly fearful of that number going up. I'm a serial weigher...I weigh myself every morning, and after everytime I use the bathroom. I'm not sure if it's the "all day" sickness or if I'm developing an aversion to food, but I find that I don't want to eat. The thought of putting food in my mouth nauseates me, though I do it because I know I have to. I'm also eating things that are higher in calories just so that I can make sure I get my daily calories in. I do get hungry, but cannot eat the larger portions that I used to, so I'm eating more frequently. I sometimes wake up in the middle of the night ravenous and it will keep me up if I don't eat something. I'll usually have half a banana and a cup of skim milk. I worry that this will become something my body gets used to and will "require" once I'm no longer pregnant. NOT a habit I want to form. But I struggle because I KNOW I have to do this for the baby's health. I'm so torn between not wanting to gain weight and being healthy for this baby that it's breaking my mind in two. I struggle sometimes watching everyone's numbers drop and mine just sit...knowing that eventually mine will go up, praying every day that they don't, and that the baby will be great! Add to everything that I'm home schooling my oldest, spending half my day driving kids back and forth to school. (The youngest has half day kindergarten and they attend a charter school, so there's no bus transportation) And trying to attend school myself, still have to maintain my house (which is in shambles and needs a good scrubbing EVERYWHERE), shop, cook, etc...I'm just plain beat. I really do hope at some point all of this evens out and I can enjoy my last pregnancy. Please know that this is only one woman's perspective and this is NOT the case for all preggos. Anyway, thanks for listening to my ramblings...please do NOT be discouraged by the things I wrote!!

If I didn't know you'd had wls I'd say you were having a very normal first trimester! Everything you are 'whining' about is what the first trimester is famous for...give yourself a break! I was a stay-at-home mom with both of my pregnancies and didn't do any homeschooling so what was my excuse for being extremely fatigued, 24-7 morning sickness/nausea, sore boobs, off and on depression... That enough whining? LOL You know that old expression "Ginger Rogers did everything Fred Astaire did except backwards and in heels" ? Well, that is you right now! You are doing everything any pregger mom has to do AND you have to deal with your wls issues. Give our buddy a break! We are so proud of you and know that you have it tough right now. You may think it will be sad when you start gaining but we'll be cheering you and 'our' little one who is growing, growing, growing. When you have delivered the baby and are ready to get back to your post-op diet we'll be here to help you. After all, I'm sure you've read "Pouch Rules For Dummies" and remember the end part where the doctor mentions putting a long-term post-op who'd regained her weight? She goes back on the 'rules' and the lady began steadily losing her weight again. You'll do it too! Don't stay away because of feeling any less than us...we are rooting for you! HUGS!!!! Molly

Aw Shawn, I am so glad you posted but sorry you are feeling so crummy right now. I can imagine how much of this is a struggle for you right now wanting your numbers to stay down but that growing child does need nourishment and you know that. I know many people who have had kids and delivered and still go to their goals no problem. Do you visit the pregnancy board at all? I am sure they would be great help to you also. Sounds like your plate is really full, take it easy as much as you can.. get a bubble bath in there or something. I hope it all evens out for you also. I am praying for you and just take it one day at at a time. *hugs* We are here for you.

Hi, Shawneena...Wow are you a busy momma-to-be! Don't worry about the weight now and try to enjoy this special time. Although the rest of the Dec MB is heading toward goal, once we get there we will struggle to maintain our weight. Weight will always be a part of the journey; a bit of a pain too. Once your sweet babe gets here, there will be more than enough time to drop the pounds. So take it easy, Momma! Ro

Thanks for updating us. I am so sorry you are not feeling better, but I hope once your first trimester is over that will change. You will be in my prayers. I know all you have on your plate must make this very difficult. Just do the best you can and take care of yourself.

I just cant believe how much stuff you have going on in your life right now.... CALGON take her away! I am hoping these pregnancy months go by quickly so you (hee hee we ) can hold that little baby and know that they were all worth it. I know that you will kick butt when you are able to get back on plan, right now you are doing the right thing for the baby! Thinking of you! Rebecca