What did ya eat today - Friday?

Ok I KNOW this is WAY WAY early.. but I lost control last night. I had everything I said I was gonna have.. but then some more... all not BAD choices.. popcorn (mini bag, 94% percent ff), latte (with SF syrup, light soy milk), EAS shake, some nuts.. then yes.. then A POWER CRUNCH BAR! What got into me? Well I think I may have been self sabotaging myself b/c I am afraid of the scale moving some! I know that is so dumb but I have lost quickly this month and now I am trying to say "its ok to indulge today" ... tell me how mental THAT IS? Wow.. So no it is NOT ok Melissa to do that to yourself.. that was your preop way.. you live life differently now, your relationship with food has changed, remember Melissa? So I am dusting myself off and MOVING on.. This is my strategy.. I ate about 1600 calories yesterday.. yes 1600!!! I know I know.. first time I have EVER done this. But I refuse.. refuse to let it kill today by getting so upset about it! I am taking credit for the powercrunch bar for today since I ate it like at 2am. I was just up way to long yesterday and killed my day and got into some weird cyclic munching pattern.. bad bad. So today I will eat 800 calories so that I am at 1000, brings yesterdays down to 1400 and 1200 average for both days.. I know seems high still to you guys but I eat 1000-1200 now. It works for me with running 2 miles. so here is what today looks like.. we are busy all day out of town doing errands in Rochester MN... so even harder! (powercrunch bar - I am counting from 2am bedtime snarck..argh) B: 2 crustless egg white mini quiches L: 1 wedny's chili.. no cheese, no crackers.. just chili S: Starbucks SF Vanilla, Nonfat, Decaf Iced Latte (we always go to starbucks so I am gonna have it) D: Some kind of meat, 4 oz and healthy veggies. S: EAS shake This gives me things I love to look forward to and enjoy throughout the day but meats my protein and keeps cals at 800 with PC bar 1000. Wish me luck and kick my butt if u feel the need, I prob need it. But at least I came here to admit my failure. I feel good about that. How did you do today?

It was a full moon still when I went to work yesterday morning, do you think that had anything to do with yesterday's big eating challenges? One thing I am curious about...did you happen to weigh yourself this morning? I weigh every day and had a "WTF!?" moment this morning on the scale. You saw what I ate yesterday and how high the numbers were (for me). This morning I am down to 134. NOOOOO!!!! I do not want to lose any more! I LOVE my new wardrobe and want to keep everything fitting just as it is now. Ugh! Maintenance sucks!!!! I tried the oatmeal and protein this morning and so far, so good. No dumping yet...and I used a Quaker Weight Reduction/Cinnamon oatmeal which prob. had too much sugar grams. By the time I added up the calories from the protein and the oatmeal and a 1/4 cup of craisins that I ate with it that was waaaay too many calories for starting the day. Much worse than my usual protein shake. We'll see how the rest of the day goes. I am determined, like you, to keep the numbers low. Prob. will have a lot of chicken and cucumbers today. Watermelon is GONE! LOL Molly ps...I baked that batch of homemade protein bars and they came out HUGE! I don't think I'll have any trouble using one of them for a full meal or even splitting it into two portions. Haven't tried it yet so no report on the taste.

Hey Molly, well again I notice that your calories are usually between 650-1000 and honestly you will probably keep losing on that amount. Did you say your doc said 1000-1100? or something like that? I think that is still losing mode. I know my BMR (which is the calories i burn just exisiting and doing nothing else is 1450ish) so of course we would lose weight on less.. ? See what I am saying? I wouldn't be afraid to up a bit in your stage of the game, I know the fear of gaining is there but at the same time you need to eat more than a child would... right? I donno, just me thinking outloud, I don't wanna calorie push on you but I eat more than you do most days and most everybody on this board and you see how well I am still losing.. just food for thought. As for the protein bars, yes please do share with us once you taste them, looking forward to your report on those! It must have been a full moon.. sheesh. Better today better today.. that is my hope.

Terri's protein bars are ok. Not yummy-yummy but not bad! I can see where this recipe would be a terriffic starting place for all kinds of fun additions and changes. I did add 1/4 cup flaxseed to bump up the fiber a bit. And I used a maple syrup for the first time trying it but it worries me because this is 'Steel's' and the main ingredient is maltitol. Gas City! So far, I am only able to eat half of it and now feel uncomfortable. I think it would be an excellent recipe for us RNY patients to cut in half...think of the calorie savings alone, not to mention the cost savings! Next time aroun I think I'll go for a pb style and use vanilla prot. powd. and my sf. pb coffee syrup. Prob. will change out the juice too. I'm so glad Terri posted that link! Molly

This is what I have had today so far: B-protein shake with FF milk and a few strawberries S-Atkins caramel double chocolate crunch protein bar----um, um, so yummy D-Tuna with whole wheat crackers and SF Jello S-Cheese cubes S-SF Cappuccino with FF Milk D-ground beef alone, have no more calories left My totals are: Totals Cal:1121 Fat:41 Carbs:88 Protein:107 I am going to try my hardest to keep the calories at 1000 so I can make to onederland before 09/14.

Beatriz, what kind of cheese are you eating? From looking over your day it looks like maybe that is what is killing your calories. Have you tried any of the lower fat varieties of cheese for snacking or are you already doing that? It has been so hard to give up eating a bite of cheese now and then but using the online food tracker has really made me see how 'expensive' cheese is on that daily calorie budget. But using a 2% fat cheese instead of a full-fat cheese really helps keep the daily totals in line if I really just HAVE to have some cheese. Doesn't taste bad, either since I buy the sharp cheddar kind. It has more flavour than the mild and you don't need to eat as much of it for that full cheesy taste. Just an idea... Molly

Thanks Molly but the cheese I had today was 2%, I had two servings instead of one and that probably did it. I will be more careful with my selections tomorrow. I will be starting my day with the famous "cottage cheese panckages".....can't wait. Beatriz

HI I sooo want to have a good weekend so I can post a LOSS on Tuesday instead of anyother gain..I bought a new water bottle adn I have to say I have been drinking a lot more water the last few days so that is a good thing!!!! B-2 mini quiches L-1/3 of a ham and roast beef double decker sandwich and grapes S-1/2 Atkins Protein bar and string cheese D-String cheese and whole grain crackers 1/3 grilled chicken salad S- watermelon I went to Cinti today to see my mom. She is getting a lot weaker and was pretty confused today. This is the saddest thing I have ever had to do is watch her turn into someone else...she was always so happy, talked and smiled ALL the time and now she is none of those things. CANCER SUCKS!!! Diana

You did great today, Diana. I hope that your scale will cooperate on Tuesday. I don't expect mine to keep the loss I had this morning...maybe that is just a water thing. Are they doing a good job of keeping your mom's pain controlled? I hope so. The only thing that we disagreed with on the hospice care that my aunt got was that they wanted to restrict her water the last few days and we thought that was so cruel, especially since it was in late July and so hot that year. I think they just do it to help the patient let go faster but it just felt so wrong to the family. Keep hanging in there! Molly

Hi Diana. I am praying for you and your family. This is a very hard time for all of you, I can only imagine. I see it a lot with families as I am a nurse and take care of patients like your mom. I hope they are keeping her comfortable. Thinking of you, sending you hugs your way.. I know this isn't an easy time my friend.