What Didn't I Eat---Saturday

Ok, confession time because it is so important to be accountable to you all as well as to my own self. I haven't felt myself this week and was just wiped out on Saturday and pretty much ate anything I felt like. (well, I did still keep to my no wheat and low fat rule) I tried to work hard outside but kept only managing an hour of work at a time, feeling weak and tired then coming inside to eat and fall asleep. Not a good day! My numbers came out astronomical and I'm really ashamed of losing control like that. No surprise I'm not really very hungry today. (LOL!) But I'm starting the day with a different approach and so far, so good. From doing this on the board for a little while now I can see that I have a definite problem handling the weekends lately. That is going to take some preplanning, I think. I have to come up with a strategy that will work. So, here's what I ate yesterday: *1 recipe cottage cheese pancakes topped with 3 T Steels Country Syrup...this brought on an ulcer attack (maybe pouchie no longer likes the maltitol syrup?) * frosty protein shake *the rest in no particular order and mostly grazed: about 6 cups watermelon 1 turkey/cheese rollup 3 oz. chicken w/1 tab. sf bbq sauce 1/3 cup nsa ice cream with half a banana 1/2 cup nf cottage cheese with another half of a banana a mixture of 1/4 cup cashews, 1/4 cup granola, 2 T. craisins 1 sf fudgesicle another quarter cup granola This comes out to around 1500 calories, 200 carbs, 40 gr. fat, 91 protein. Amazingly I did not have a gain today but I wouldn't be surprised if it hit me by Tuesday. This had me wondering the whole day if I wanted to eat these things because I needed the fruits and protein because I felt bad or were eating all those things keeping me feeling bad and it was really just ugly head hunger??? I don't know the answer but do know that I needed to come and post it all here to stay accountable. Today I'm going to go visit my parents and take my own food with me, maybe being away from home will help. Molly

Molly!!! You are not alone here!! I had a HORRIBLE eating day yesterday as well, and today, not so hungry either. Here's my rundown protein shake (made with carb countdown milk ff) atkins protein bar 10 oz. skim milk 6 lowfat triscuits with 1/2 tbsp LF cream cheese taco from mexican restaurant 1/2 lobster tail, 1 scallop, 1 shrimp and 3 crab legs 1/2 c. nsa mint choc chip ice cream 1 oz. chicken breast with 1/2 TBSP bbq sauce 1/2 banana with 1 tsp natural pb 6 saltine crackers 6 oz. skim milk cals. 1321, fat 41, carbs 128, protein 113 I'm trying for a better day today. Have had my protein drink, breakfast and lunch and am at: cals 495, fat 11, carbs 39, protein 56 I'm guessing mine will catch up with my on Tuesday as well. :\

Guys, guys, please do not beat yourselves up. WE all have the same days, however, we need to learn and make it just a one day thing. We can not deprive ourselves all the time. Learning from our mistakes is the best. I had a horrible day friday and made a point to do much better on saturday and sunday and it worked perfect. Keep up the good work and do not beat yourselves up over and over. Move on....to a better day, better choices,,,,,, Love, Beatriz

Ditto what Beatriz said!!!!

Melissa, thank you too! Big hugs for everybody here who made me feel so much better. You really have no idea how much that truly, truly helped. I had two choices...keep silent and ashamed about slipping yesterday and begin a slow slide back to bad habits or just own up to it publicly. I'm so grateful that everybody here on this mb is so loving! Molly

Beatriz, thank you thank you thank you!!! That is just the support that I really needed and it helped so much. I don't want to let any of my Dec. sibs down and promise to keep working at this struggle. It is definitely a one-day-at-a-time type recovery for me. Molly

Molly, I believe this journe is definitely a one day at the time thing for ALL of us. Take Care, Beatriz

See, we can't 'yell' at you for having a bad day since you have to keep our new baby fed during this critical time and even though your numbers may have looked high your food choices weren't bad at all! Glad we both had a better day today, whether or not I have to deal with the numbers on Tuesday because of yesterday doesn't matter so much as dealing with the emotional pain of feeling like a failure yesterday. That sucked!!! Molly

Thanks Molly for your kind words and support. I think with my previous pregnancies, I used that as an excuse to eat whatever the heck I wanted to. I don't want to do that this time...I don't want to have that post pregnancy gain that's been a constant with my other pregnancies. Does that make sense? And you're right about the emotional pain of feeling like a failure...it TOTALLY sucked!! But I'm proud of today's accomplishment and feeling a bit better. I'm glad you are too...and I'm glad we all have one another to lean on. I know I'd not make it otherwise.

I am not aware of any of us being perfect. We all have difficulties, but the most important thing is that we work on it everyday. So we have a bad day or two now and then..so what. It is what we are doing 95% of the time that matters. We have all done wonderful at weight loss and should be proud of every pound we have lost so if we have a bad day it is ok. None of us make a practice of it. Everyone on this board has done so amazingly well and it is because of this support system we have built up. I am so happy to see that when one of us makes a mistake we tell each other about it. It helps us get back on track. Great job Molly for recognizing and for posting about your mistake. Even greater job for getting back on track!! ~ Terisa