I'm losing control and I am scared

I am so glad to hear you on a more positive note today Cordelia....you are very beautiful. Keep logging in here, the women on here are amazing and so are you. Talk to you very soon...Erin

Cordelia, I am so happy that you are feeling better today. It sounds like your tears today were more out of joy and relief rather than pain. That is wonderful news. We really do care very much about you as we do everyone on this board and we care about your health and success. I agree that a nutritionist would be great, but the real problem is why you are eatiing. Why you are choosing food as a way to cope with with how you are feeling and why you are feeling this way. Most everyone is aware that I am a big supporter of psychotherapy. Yeah, I am a little bias because it is my area of study, but from a client's perspective therapy has saved my life. It is always what is going to save my life again before I become anorexic and die. I am so happy that you were able to tell your husband. That was a big step for you and I am proud of you for finding the courage to do that. I hope you are proud of yourself too. May I offer a suggestion to you? Instead of eating when you are having a difficult time do you think you would be interested in journaling? Then you would be able to find a pattern. I would also like to say that you are welcome to send me a message at any time and feel free to say whatever is on your mind. How you feel in general, how you feel about yourself, if you want to eat.....anything to pass the time and get through the tough moments. I am quite certain that you can post your journals on the Dec message board too if you are comfortable with that. I have not eatin anything yet today. I was not sure if I would or not, but since you have taken big steps I will meet you halfway and go eat something. We can all support each other and when one is weak, the other can support the other. When we are all skinny and HOT we are gonna have to have a Dec get together and go out dancing!! LOL Please take care of yourself and remember how much we care and how much we are here for you. I am happy to add you to my friends list and happy to be here for you anytime you need someone. I am an email addict so I check my email all the time. Peace and blessings, Terisa