Deja Vu

Today was my first day back to work and I feel like I almost never had surgery at all, and I don't mean that in a good way. The stress and work and worry is all back and I responded in true form by eating eating eating. I didn't eat anything that I wasn't supposed to, but I did eat what feels like half my weight in soy crisps and low carb yogurt. I feel bloated and disgusting. I hate it when I do this, and I'm so disheartened that it has happened again so quickly into the process. Years ago, before I had my children, I went through a pretty serious bulemic period, and I have found myself today wanting to "purge" because I can't stand this guilty feeling I have about the eating. I wonder when I will ever find a way to deal with my stress without stuffing my mouth.

Sharon, I am sorry to hear you had a rough day. Take a deep breath. Tomorrow you can try again. And you only "felt" like purging. Be proud of yourself that you didn't. If this keeps up, do you have a therapist you can go see. I have the guilt of eating too. I guess I got it in my head that the only way I will lose weight is....not eating. So when I eat, i feel quilty. I hope this all passes quickly for you. I hate to hear of a surgery sister that is having this much trouble. Please take care of yourself. Corinn

Thanks Corinn. I appreciate the support.

Sharon, I'm also sorry to hear you had such a bad day today. But you are being so hard on yourself that you are overlooking one really important milestone you hit today. You realized this was a problem, knew the behavior wasn't a good one and came here to talk about it. That is tremendous! Before, wouldn't most of us done the same type thing and then also felt so guilty about it that we binged more later on, maybe secretly? You experienced it, it made you feel bad and you recongized the behavior and expressed a desire to change it. That seems like a really good step to me. Don't be so hard on yourself and have some strategies in place to handle it tomorrow if it is the same type of day. Molly

Remember Sharon, we have had a life time to learn the bad eating habits that we have and only a few days/weeks to attempt to retrain ourselves. I am a work eater as well and I am dreading going back for that reason. The amount that you are eating is in reality a small amount and you in no way should feel guilty for it. Even if we do in, in the future, slip up on occasion it is to be expected we are only human hun. Keep your head up. Sabrina

I returned to work on Monday last week. I left the "comforts" of home, a place where I could control my eating. I return to work, to my lunch buddies, one who has had WLS and the other has not. We have to encourage each other. We have done well with eating right and you will too. Coming here and talking about it is a big step, you have admitted that it is a problem. If it seems to get to where you cant handle it, please call and get help. Do you have a support group that you can attend? Ask your surgeons office for a referral to a psychologist that specializes in weight/eating related issues. Don't give up, you will beat this!! Angela