Today was a little difficult.

I was questioning why on earth I did this right before the holidays?? Crazy question, I know. I told myself last week I had many years of pigging out over the holidays... this did not need to be another. My family was good. They did without a lot of stuff we normally have. But they did not really suffer for it. I did not ask them to do with out, but did. They still had plenty though. H made a prime rib that really looked lucious! The only thing that really bothered me though was the mashed potatoes... I really felt like I wanted some, not physically but just in my head. I think it will get better, today has really been the only time I felt deprived. Hopefully that was only because it was Christmas.

It is so hard when others have food around you. It is not their fault but it tests your will power. I have not had the desire to eat. I wanted to go to the movies today. I choose not to because of all the food smells. Although I have not had head hunger or desired food I personally still need to avoid it.

Yeah it was a little hard yesterday. But my husband's family decided to do soups and sandwiches for me and my sister-n-law who had lap band the 19th, which I really could have cared less for. There was fudge and I was told to just go ahead and take a bite just to get the taste then spit it out. Well I did not because I am trying to follow this plan as well as I can. I did have a little soup and I just ate the liquid part. At my mom's on Christmas Eve she said they would just do all snacky stuff instead of a dinner but everything there was like my favorite before. But I didn't have anything of course and now Christmas is over and I have no guilt like I would have had if I hadn't had this surgery. I always felt guilty for eating all that stuff the next day and then I would start my diet. Yeah right. New Years is coming up and there goes that diet. So I am excited that I didn't have all that junk and that I had a great time playing games and cards with my family I didn't even miss the food. That is what family gatherings should be about instead of that good food. But it will never be like that I am sure. Just wanted to share my thoughts. Oh yeah and I do have the head hunger so that is something I am going to have to get over. Good Luck, Kristina