2 days to go ..

Less than 40 hours from now I'll be at the hospital checking in for my surgery. I can honestly say that I have hit the "OMFG what in the world have I gotten myself into, I can't go through with this, I must be insane" mode somewhere around 2 AM this morning. While I know the chances of anything actually going wrong on monday are pretty much nil .. you can't help but wonder about the what ifs ... But then again i have always been the type that over analyses EVERYTHING. Though I find t he hardest part is goingot be having to be away from my babies ( son and daughter) for that long. Yes I know it's only 2 1/2 days but still. I'm goin gto miss them sooo much. Funny considering I always joke that I would do anything for a vacation away from this mad house lol. But yes I am excited/happy/nervous and scared to death all in one. I'm sure I'm not the only one to ever feel this and I won't be the last but it really doe**** a lot harder than I expected. Think i am going to have to go get an ice cream with my daughter once more. Just because.

Good luck to you Kylie. I will say a prayer for you to have an easy surgery with no complications and little pain. Just think only a little more time and you will be on your way to a healthy life.

O.K. breathe, Hi, my name is Annette and I am one day behind you. I feel the same way as you do. Except my kids are 17 and 22 and I won't be missing them while I'm in the hospital. Don't get me wrong, I do love them, but I will have bigger things to worry about while I am gone. I'm freaking out about the pain I might be in. I'm wondering if this is going to work. I'm wondering how will I survive the liquid period. I'm wondering how will I know when I've had enough food. And I'm visualizing myself in a smaller size jeans. Sooooo my kids are not a worry, besides I've been away from them dozens of times. Absents make the heart grow fonder, right, LOL. See you on the other side. Annette

Kylee I am feeling the same way. It's 2 am Monday. I can't sleep. I go in at 6:15am Tuesday. My mind keeps going and going and going. Good luck to you! My prayers will be with you and a great outcome! Hey, we will be losers in 2005!!! What a way to celebrate!!!! Melissa