Hello everyone
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on 10/10/06 12:09 am - SC
on 10/10/06 12:09 am - SC
Hi there!
I'm doing well, physically I fee wonderful and energetic..mentally, I'm confused.
I have lost more weight than I've wanted to, and I have been eating things I thought I shouldn't..I'm trying to figure out how to maintain at 150lbs..but I'm down to 138..I was studing myself in the mirror yesterday, nude, getting ready to take a long soak in the tub..well, I just look so pitiful, droopy all over and the collar bones are starting to remind me of a poor old overworked work horse.
I'm eating pizza, pasta, bread and everything I can that'll stop myself from losing but stepped on the scale yesterday and had lost another 2lbs! I can put away some grub..I don't understand why I continue to lose! I was on a platu for about a month or so before, and thought OK..this is it..I was scared because I could eat anything excpt sugar, and I could eat plenty..I was afraid I would start to gain, but then the scale started moving down again.
What else is going on? WELL, seems my husband is not as attracted to me as he was when I was heavy..He studies me hard sometimes, and at first thinking he likes what he sees, then he say's when are you going to gain some weight back! I secretly revenge him by spending (LOTS) of money on new clothes...I'm needing to seek some help, I think..I just can't figure out what is wrong with my relationships these days..all of them, really. Figureing it must be me, the one who has a problem. I feel like the people I love are avoiding me. Makes me sad and lonely.
So! That's where I am so far..
I am at a 137 pound wt loss. This morning I weighed 150. My goal is to fit into a single digit pant size, 8, or get down to normal BMI, which for my height, 5'4" is 145. I am still eating mainly protein, no carbs or sugars. My weight loss has slowed way down. I have only lost about four pounds in the last month and I feel like these last few pounds are the hardest to loose. I am exercising 4 times a week, but could certainly do more.
I too am having some emotional adjustments I am trying to deal with. First of all, I have to say I am thankful I had this surgery. I felt it saved my life because I was slowly dying, physically and emotionally. After being so big for so long, it is uncomfortable for me to be noticed and complimented. I feel I am treated differently now that I am "normal size", by my family, people I work with and strangers. But inside I am the same person I have always been. I have been focused on my surgery and loosing weight for so long, most of my life, I don't know how I will handle when I am at goal wt. I know I will always have to watch what I put in my mouth and I will have to exercise. But I think I have put some of the blame for my life's problems on my weight. "If I wasn't so fat . . .". Now I am realizing I have to still deal with crap and can't hide behind my fat anymore. I feel exposed.
Marta :0)
OK Chocolate CHILD you asked all these questions.....what about YOU??????
I have been having so much shoulder pain. They moved me from Oct 16 to Dec 6.
I know old age has brought about a change. When I was in my 20's and full of diet pills I couldn't wait to show off my new body. MUST HAVE BEEN THE PILLS
Now I wear my clothes until they are falling off of me so bad. Its like I really don't want any one to see how much weight I have lost. About 135lbs. I slowed my weight lost down because of the surgery because of the healing process. Now I am trying to lose again. I will stop trying right at turkey day. At least I know no pecan pies for me. I still don't exercise. But man am I moving. Remember I was the wheel chair, walker, cane person. I even go to my Godson's football games and walk up into the stands. I use a stadium chair. Ain't no cushion back there any more. I am pinching off of sweets now. But I am ok with half a cookie instead of a 2lb bag of Chip Ahoys.
My mental state is ok. I think because I have been through so many bone surgeries this is a little easier for me than learning how to walk again.
Hello,
I had my surgery on 12/20/05 with a starting weight of 279, wearing size 24/26 clothing. As of this morning I weigh 142 for a total loss of 137 pounds. I am currently wearing anywheres from a size 4's to 6's in pants and tops. I continue to lift weights and do the elliptical/stairmaster 3-5x per week. The weight loss has really been slow to non existent the last few weeks. I yo yo the same two pounds. While I am very satisfied with my loss I would still like to lose around 10 pounds. I will have my 10 month anniversary appointment with my surgeon on 10/16. I am going to broach the subject of what/if any? plastic surgery we can get insurance to pay for. If I am eligible for plastics I think my clothing would fit/look better. My thighs and belly resemble a certain male body part that resides south of the boarder or in more polite terms I resemble a California Raisin. Anybody else have this problem? My upper arms are also an issue. I had a tank top on the other day and raised my arm. My son said, Geesh mom shave those hairy things. I explained to him that it was only wrinkly, crinkly skin not hair. Kind of funny but sad at the same time. I am so grateful for the surgery and all of the positive changes that have occured in my life and for all the support on this board.
Thanks,
Paula Tovar
279/142
12/20/05