clear now...

you know what i am sitting here reading my journal and come to the realization that i didn't have this surgery to be a size 2 - i never was and frankly never want to be - i did this so that *i woiuld be able to walk up the stairs without losing my breath - * be able to cross my legs like a lady * play with my daughter and not be wiped out * wear a belt for the first time in my entire life * feel better about myself - not depressed because the size 24 is too tight and i refuse to buy a 26 *buy something out of the regular size store - although it may be an xl atleast its not 1xl * wear my 3 1/2 inch stilletos without falling over - or walking as if i just got off a horse * lose weight so that i would be able to have another child with out having complications as i did with my daughter * look at my pictures and say hey i knew her * be smaller than my husband * again feel confident in myself and feel as though i am the only woman my husband would ever love (had issues- to long to get into) the initial goal that my doctor set for me was not for me but for him - my goal has changed i think that i would be very happy with being 190lbs so my new goal is not that far away again thanks for listening Jo

You got it! Always be true to yourself. . . Sherry

Amen.. I too have to remind myself of my original goals every once in a while. It's funny because sometimes when we start off with this whole WLS thing we don't even know how to make the right goals.. at least regarding the numbers game. My doctor had to remind me at our last appointment that my original goal was to get to 180 when I showed a little dissapointment for not being below it yet. He told me I was about a month and a half above his weight loss schedule for me and he actually wanted me to start trying to eat more calories. So I did what he said and since then I have had to make new goals because I am now 171. Who knew? I know realize that this train kinda stops where it wants to and that as long as I do what they tell me to my goals regarding my actual weight are totally up in the air. anyhoo.. crossing my legs wasn't on my original list.. but it's by far the best thing going these days!!! April

i think that the most successful people with this surgery are those that keep things in perspective and realize that their goals may be different than others. This is such a personal journey and each one is different. Everyone has those things that are important to them and to verbalize them is so important. Congrats on realizing what your goals are and staying true to them! Dee

Thanks dee & sherry & thanks again April - you know ive always was a big girl - 190 to me was thick its not that far from where i am now at 220 - in fact 190 was thw weight in the picture that I am always saying I wish i was there again - everyone in my family is large framed - not to say that its ok that i got to be my heaviest - but i make way more better choices, and NOW ultimately know where I want to be - you're right everyone is different - everyone loses at your own pace - i really didnt want to lose so much drastically in the beginning - for the sake of my sanity- i figured the slower it came off the longer i could keep it off - but i know that there is plenty of things that i could of did in the beginnning to made it come off - but i know that i hated dieting and with this new tool i didnt need to diet just make the right choices - i could live with making the right choices for the rest of my life and but could not live with dieting for the rest of my life - thanks all again god bless you all - keep up the good work - and i hope every thing in this journey is clear to you or will be soon xoxo Jo

You go girl! I felt sad for you when I read that post but you know what? You've turned it around and have managed to inspire me too!

I have had a major slow down in the weight loss area, but if I did stop losing now I would be happy. My goal is only 18lbs away. I was talking to hubby last night and he asked how much I had left to lose, when I told him he said that was a lot of weight left to go. When I explained how much I had already lost (129lbs) in the grand sceme of things 18lbs is nothing.I'm still losing about 5lbs a month, so hope to be at goal by 12/20 date. I can now wear hubby's pants 34 x34...he can't wear mine 12...lol. I can cross my legs, sit with the arm rests not digging into my sides, hubby can't keep up with me and wants me to slow down at times....he weighs 166lbs. So much has changed and all for the good! Happy losing all, Brooke 288/188/170