Just a little confession

I want to start by saying I do know the right things to do and that this surgery has been a gift a tool.... I am sooo bad. I have not been exercizing, Carbs morning noon and night. And my amounts scare the hell out of me. I have gone from a 34 to a 22 and 100 pound down but I worrry , I mean don't you worry even if your going by the book? I do however feel that even if my "gateway" has closed, being my own fault, it has been worth it. I just needed to come clean I guess really for my own benifit. Maybe if I put it out there it will register and I can get on track. Thanks for your time, keep up the good wor****ri

Keri, Congrats to you on the 100lbs. I think that is great. I also wanted to say that I think everyone at some point and time has had something they were not supposed to have. For instance, I did my weekly weigh in this past Monday. I knew that I would not have any weight loss, because I had eat lots of carbs and sugars the week before. And, when I weighed I was still at 254. I was upset about it, but knew I had no one to blame but myself. I also know that I cannot have just what ever I want. I have to get myself back on track. I think you have done great. I also think that if you wanted to get back on track it would not be hard for you to do. I wish you well, on the rest of your journey. Melissa

Melissa, thank you for the reply. I think everyone gets those "never gonna get there" feelings too. I think that is why I love the boards because of the commraderie of "hey we are all going threw the same thing" I think I was just having a pity party for myself. I know what I have to do it is just getting my butt in gear to do it! Thanks again for your support it is so nice to just be able to throw things out there. Your wonderful for replying! keri

Keri - Its when we admit it to ourselves when we decide to wake up and start all over again - there are days where I forget to eat - eat salt and vinegar chips, forget my vitamins. forget to drink at least 1 bottle of water but u I know that the only one to change the habit is me and here our OH family understands that - that's why when i know i've been naughty to come here fess up and start all over again hang in there girlie Jo