Impatience and success

I started out at age 57 at 330. I have lost 88 lbs and now weigh 242. I have not been at this weight in over 20 years. We ALL must remember and I know how hard this is cause I live it daily, that we did not get fat overnight. It took us years and years of pounds creeping onward and upward for us to achieve great fatness. So we decided to take back our lives and take a drastic step and have WLS. We needed help, a tool, so we surgically rearranged our inside plumbing to achieve weight loss. This is a tool, not a fix it all. Each day we will struggle to reach our goals of a healthier live, of looking better, of being whatever we want for ourselves. I worry that I will not go below 200 lbs, I worry that I will gain back the weight I loose by returning to bad habits, I worry that "something" will go wrong and I will somehow not be totally freed from my body prison of fattness and bulk, I worry that the scale will not move, stall, show gains, and that I will AGAIN fail at my attempts to be a normal sized person. I try hard each day to put these thoughts in a box in the back of my mind. I am already a success because I chose this surgical path. I am losing weight, it is coming off, I am melting, I am feeling so much better, I am living my life again after being imprisoned and sidelined. The scales do move downward, sometimes it takes weeks for it to move. The inches are melting off. I can get into really smaller sizes in clothes. Today I have on size 1X beautiful chocolate slacks that I ordered 2 years ago and could never fit into. Yesterday I had on a pair of black, straight legged, zippered, sexy, size 22 jeans. I looked fabulous and discovered that I am so vain I had to run to the bathroom all day just to look at ME. So to all of us that are scared or impatient with our downward journey remember we are winner and we are looser. We have made good decisions and we are going to reach our individual goals. Keep faith in yourself and in each other. That is why we are all here, to help, encourage, share, let our "hair" down, lift others up, giggle, and cry. Have a safe, peaceful Memorial Day weekend and please remember and thank all the veterans and soldiers who have fought for us, so we can be free and enjoy our lives as American. Monica age 57 12/06/04 330/242/1??.........healthier, happier, sexier

Thanks for the pep talk Monica. I need it. I haven't lost anything in a month and I'm getting really depressed. It makes me just want to go eat since I'm not losing anyway. You are so encouraging. Thank you. I also went out and bought some of that shimmery lotion you were talking about. Can't wait to try it. Congrats on your weight loss! Melissa

Congrats Monica... keep up the fantastic work... And you have a great Memorial Day as well... Get you some sexy shorts on, and go outside and enjoy the day... Sunshine and all.... They are calling for rain here on Memorial Day, but I will enjoy it just the same.... Susan

Susan back at you too. When does you hubbie get home? I remember him daily in my prayers. I know how I felt all those 36 years ago waiting for my sweet John to come home. I remember the pit in my stomach aching for his safe return. He will be so proud of you and so happy to be back in the USA. Hugs to you Monica

Hi Monica... You must be thinking of someone else. I don't have a hubby... I do have that sweet Ron coming to see me next month though... And we just never know how that will turn out... just keep the good thoughts coming for that... However, I do remember back when I was married, and my then hubby was in the Navy, and the homecomings we endured back then. The biggest of the three med cruises we went thru during the 5 years we were married was during the bombing of Libya. It was good to get him home safely then. Susan

Thanks and well said my lady Donna

Monica, You said that so eloquently. Thanks! God Bless you, all our friends here at OH, and America on this Memorial Day! Hugs! Fran 224/145 P.S. I have new photos in my profile thanks to Pinalope in Montreal for her post on how to enter them! Check them out.