Feeling lost!
I know this is going to sound strange, but I feel so lost lately. Now that I'm losing weight and starting to look better, I feel like I don't know who I am. When I get dressed in the morning it is so weird. All I've worn for years was leggings and oversized shirts. Now I put them on and I look like a clown. But when I put on a pair of regular jeans I just got and a normal shirt, I am so uncomfortable. I just can't seem to feel right in anything I put on. My husband tells me I look good in the new clothes, but I just don't feel right. Like they are not me. But I don't know what is me now. I don't feel right in the big clothes now either. Sometimes I actually think I look fatter now than before I started losing the weight. I still have a long way to go, but it's so weird. I guess my identity was as a big, fat person and now that is changing.
I'm not really complaining. I'm happy that I am starting to look different. It's just going to take a while to get used to the new me. Does anyone else feel this way? I didn't think it would happen this soon.
Melissa
I can kind of relate. I'm in between right now with clothes and sizes.
My bigger clothes hang on me but the ones I fit into are getting baggy on me but I'm just not ready for new clothes as I feel I won't look good enough in them.
When I look in the mirror I still see the "FAT ME" but I know I'm losing pounds and inches.
I think we have to get use to the new us.
Donna
I know how ya feel Melissa....
I have come down so many sizes so quickly it just doesn't seem right. I was telling my mom the other day.... how long has it been since you have seen me with a shirt tucked in. She said she couldn't remember the last time. I have come down from 26's to 16's in 43 months, and the styles are so different. I am not complaining either as I am tickled to death that I can wear this stuff, but it does seem strange. And with me, while I can see a huge difference in the mirror when looking straight on, when I turn sideways, I still see the fat me. Maybe I shouldn't turn sideways any more.... Hehehehe.......
Susan
Lap RNY 12-1-04
285-225-155 (-60)
20 years ago I lost weight over winter. My apartment had only a small mirror in the bathroom, so I had no views of my entire body. I just took in my clothes as they got too big. Finally spring arrived and I needed to buy a new raincoat. I went to the store and put on a size 14 coat and went over to look in the mirror. I was shocked when I did. I didn't know the person who was looking back at me. My heart started beating like crazy and I was breathing heavily. I quickly hung up the coat and raced home. Looking back, I'm rather surprised that I responded like that. I've not been that size since that time, so as I continue to shrink I'm sure that I will find that I don't know myself again. However, I do have a huge mirror in the bathroom now so I should be able to gradually get used to the new me.
Sue O.