I need to whine...

I'm blowing it... again.  My top weight was 298 the day I went home from the hospital.  My lowest weight was 176 and that was in February of this year.  Now I'm about 195.  The problem is that I get into healthy "kicks".  I eat right, exercise and then get down 20 or so more pounds and then BAM... my old "x" habits get the better of me.  I start drinking with meals and not exercising... sneaking in sugar.

Tomorrow, well right now, I've decided I really need to stop this!  I could wear 16's easily for awhile... and now my 18's are a little tight!  This is it, the clencher... I really need to feel accountable to someone... can you guys help me out?  Maybe ask me if I've exercised... or if my eating has been on track. ... or if I'm remembering to wait a half an hour to drink after eating. 

Please don't tell me to go to a more popular board.  This is exactly where I need to be... on a board with people who are on the same time frame as me.  

Guys I really need help here... what do you say?

My Dear Brooke, after reading your post, I feel like I could sit here and cry.  I feel as though I know exactly what you are going through.  My highest weight was 296 (I was 286 on the day of my surgery) and my lowest was 152.  Today, I am weighing in at 176 and I feel sick to death about it.  I do the same as you...I go on a health kick for a while, the weight comes off and then it comes right back on again.  I was perfectly content at 165 and feel like I have to fight like hell to get back there again.  I was a size 10 (almost 8) and it felt wonderful, now my 12s are starting to feel tight and my tummy wants to bulge over the top.

Something has got to give!

No one told me until I was a year and a half out that years 3-5 are the most challenging because everything is "normal" again...bad habits come back and it can mean big time trouble.

I don't know what I can do for you, but I am willing to help and support you so that you can be successful.

By the way, you are NOT whining.  I have a feeling that there are many of us out there going through the same thing, but are embarrassed to admit it (I know I was).  The whole point of this is to band together, be strong and help each other through.

Hang in there kiddo.

Tonia

Thank you.  You've already helped by letting me know that I'm not alone.  I've set some goals for the week and I hope they are enough to get me through.  I'm really watching my food/calorie/protein intake and I'm trying to work out at least 3 or 4 times this week.

Sometimes I feel like a Barix orphan.  My clinic closed down... I guess the great after care that they promised isn't really that important now.  Don't get me wrong, I take full responsibility for my weight increase, but I wish I stil had that resource to turn to.

Ah well

Thanks for being there Tonia... I really appreciate it!

Brooke,

Honey you are not alone, I'm in the same boat right now.  My highest weight on the day of surgery was 235 and lowest was 119 and today I'm 140 and it is making me so depressed.  I think we need to plug back in and get back to what we know works.  I am having such a hard time with it though, I know it and still I feel like I keep failing.  I'm here for you Brooke.

Take care,
Loni

Thank you!  I"ve done really well this week.  Hope that I can keep it up.