Feel like a failure?

Hi Janice, I am right there with you and everyone else out there. The emotional eating is the killer for me. I was 334 lbs at the start and now fluctuate between 209 and 219. I am so close to being where I really want to be. I am shooting for 185, but I feel like I am sabotaging myself. Somtimes I think it is because I don't feel worth of making it. Sometning inside my head tells me I do not desrve it. Later I will eat Girl Scout cookies or ice cream or some other indulgence that sets me back. I have had a very difficult emotional time lately as well. Potential divorce and all the fighting and bickering that goes with it. My kids are suffering the most and I end up trying to make everybody happy. Nobody realizes how hard I am trying, so I never feel reciprocated. As a result I eat what I shouldn't and drink to excess. All that said, I know that there is help out there and that the negative cycle is weakening. I know I can get through this and so will you. Hang in there. Jack

Yes I do. I am 2+ years post op. But you still have done better than I. I went from 255 to 157. I cannot lose the rest. I just cannot. I feel like I can eat more than I should be able to. I don't feel I eat right. I just started exercizing and watching my eating habits. I started keeping a journal. This does help. I am in a size 14. I have always carried most of my weight on my bottom half. I have extremely wide hips. I am hoping liposuction will help in that area. I would die to be able to wear a size 6/8. Just die. Be proud of yourself. Use a small plate and only scoop 1 large spoon of 3 items each meal. Only eat 3 meals a day. 1 to 2 snacks. And exercise - walk or something. Keep your body busy. I am searching for answers too, but my body just fights weight loss. Stay away from junk foods, too much breads and pasta. You can sabatage your weight loss. Remember it was a TOOL. You have to do the work. I believe that those of us who are out 2+ years really need to be more aware and pay more attention than those just having surgery. We cannot forget what we were like. We have to keep reminding ourselves how far we come and keep working at it. When we give up, we've lost. Be proud of what you have accomplished because IT IS A BIG DEAL. Rose