Am I Crazy?

Hi there everybody? Kari, Nona how are you feeling? Jesi, Md where are you? Alison and well everybody... Can I ask this question? 1)Does this happen to any of you guys? It seems when I eat and I don't feel that full, I get kind of panicky. I think if I don't feel it, my surgery has failed me. I guess I look at my daughters surgery, and how she has gained most of her weight back and I panick.If I don't eat between meals and eat properly, meaning veggies,meats and 3 meals, it seems to me the surgery is working. I can't eat in between,when I follow the 3 meal thing. 2)Why do you think those crunchies and carbs as crackers and cookies seem to be never ending and never making you full? I don't have that answer, I just keep the stuff out of the house, or if I buy them I buy the kiddie packs you send kids to school with. I am still holdiing steady my weight loss of about 115 pds and still stay between 130-135 lbs. At 5ft6 I am happy with that.I think my weight will always be a life long issue for me. Have a great Sunday and Peace to all Lorraine

Dear Lorraine, I don't think you are crazy. I am obsessed with losing weight...I want to be normal weight soooo bad. I can't remember the last time I put something in my mouth that I considered the least bit bad and I don't snack at all. I exercise EVERY day for an hour and if the weather is good, I walk down on the tow path we have next to the canal for 2.5 miles... then 2.5 back with one of my daughters. (It's been raining the whole week-end) Remember, my doctor told me I wouldn't lose any more weight and that I was eating right. That really made me feel so sad and I don't really understand why he would say I couldn't, but I have to try. I weight 151 now and it is only a little bit more til I will be overweight. I am lucky because MOST of the time I don't get hungry, but it is weird, that when I do want something, it is always something I shouldn't have. I always make sure I have 60 or more of protein and take my vitamins every day. Yes, this is a life long issue for me too. Allison

Hi Lorraine, I'm ok today. Got a little discomfort in the right side of my incision. Been doing a lot,so that's probably it. Going back to work on Monday, if the Dr says ok. I fix my plate and lots of time, find I have room for more. But I try not to eat more. If I do, it's veggies or fruit. Carbs call my name. They even have my cell phone number and don't hesitate to use it. Anyway, I have a sweet tooth. A whole mouthful of them. But, like you, I try to fill up and the good stuff. And, like our skinny friend MD, I eat the bad stuff. Just not like I used to. Not by a long shot. I can't exercise much right now, Dr's orders. But I am looking forward to getting back to walking again. I miss it. Nona

Hello~your not crazy!!! And even if you were, I wouldn't mind I too get a little upset when it feels like I can eat a whole cow! Like tonight I made chicken in the crockpot with cream of mushroom, brown rice and salad...I had a third of a chicken breast.....maybe 1/3 cup brown rice and 1/2 cup lettuce. If I would have eaten the chicken first I would have filled up.....but I ate rice, salad, a bite of chicken, and mixed it all up.....seems when I do that the protein doesn't fill me up!!! And carbs well the are the I have a huge major addiciton that I cannot break right now and it is really depressing to say the least. I have been dealing with a lot of emotional head games right now, and I am not winning. Since my plastic surgery 8/04/05 I have gained 10lbs and I feel like such a damn failure it is crazy......so what do I do....I pout, feel sorry for myself, and eat more......never ending terrible crazy cycle that I need to get ahold of.......so if your crazy.....wonder what that makes me I wish I could report that everything is peachy, but at this point it is not.....I am working on it tho.....got my meds changed and seeing a counselor.....I will hopefully be reporting that I am feeling much better soon!!!!!! Wish me luck....I need it right now!!! Take Care jesi

Jesi, I am wishing you "Good Luck" I hope that you are well and feeling great. I know that this weight problem will be with us for the rest of our lives. I know speaking for me it is. I am and have been at goal. I bounce back between 130- 135 lbs. I gain a few and lose a few. I try to keep tabs on it. I did not before and that is probably why I was 250lbs. I have to jus****ch myself. I never did before. Those carbs are something else. I am a hospital worker and we are always grabbing whatever we can get our hands on. Guess what????????????? ....CARBS Take care Lorraine

Dear Jesi, You are not a failure! I hate to hear you even think that. You look wonderful in your pictures...so pretty and sweet. I have been reading the plastics board and ALMOST everyone says they have gone up in weight because they have so much swelling. The carbs thing, that is another issue. My husband brought home these cinnamin buns and THANK GOD everyone liked them and ate them all up, because they were all I could think about. What I do is not bring things I can't resist into the house. (he also brought these cheese balls home from Sam's Club and I always want to pop a few in my mouth... I only did it ONCE, but I think about taking more each time I see them) We are all having some trouble and issues that we are dealing with about eating, BUT!!!! people that I talk to all know someone who has had this surgery and either never lost much weight, lost for awhile and stopped, and gained it all back. They are NOT people that lurk on the boards and keep reading about what you need to do or discuss their troubles. We all care about you here and I want you to feel better. I will pray. I promise. Allison

It's been awhile since I've been to my "anniversary" board. I guess we all are experiencing similar feelings. The more "normal" I eat, the greater my fear of stepping on the scales one day and seeing I have gained all my weight.....it's a nightmare that won't go away. It's almost like I was obsessed with "losing" and now that I'm still below my ideal weight goal and no longer losing, I don't have anything to obsess with???? luvitsunnyv 228/137/114/118

Sunny, How are you? Everytime I think of you, I know we share the same anniversary date. Isn't it something that it has been almost 2 years? I know right away if I gain a few pounds. I can feel it now on my small frame. Before I did not. After a few months and gaining 20 pounds, I felt it a bit. I know I would feel it more so now. I will be very careful with my new life and this wonderful gift of WLS that has been given to me. I know I feel better and look better, but I will always remember where I came from and how sick I was as an insulin diabetic. That may keep me on track.... At least I hope it does. Lorraine

Lorraine - From a fellow crazy...I lost all my weight, reached my goal almost exactly one year after surgery. For Christmas last year, my oldest brother bought me a 2 pound box of See's candy...my older brother bought me a gift pack of Smucker's jellies. See's candy was one reason I weighed 310 pounds. I am ashamed to say that yes, I did eat the candy...ALL of it. But, as opposed to before my surgery, when the box would have been gone in one day, it took me almost a month, eating one piece every once in a while. And guess what? I found out it's actually OK to eat "wrong", as long as you control it! I help control it by eating sugar free candies - they are wonderful! And Lay's makes fat free chips that taste exactly like "real" chips, and are only 75 calories for 1 ounce - which is really alot of chips! And I constanly hunt down sugar free, fat free or low fat recipes - Kraft.com is GREAT for this! They had a recipe for a Cream cheese pie that is to die for, and is sugar free and low fat! They have great meal recipes for us, and LOTS of dessert options that we can eat and not feel guilty about. Try them! Lots of luck! Melissa

Melissa, Thanks for the information. I am a former diabetic still using Sweet and Low in my coffee. There is some things I just can't eat and those are chocolate, I can have 1 piece, and regular ice cream. I and then I regret it. I buy Edys No Sugar Added Butter Pecan. It's the best. It is true in moderation is the Key. Before we did not know or least I did not know and I had no limit. I guess that is why I weighed almost 300 pds. The day of surgery I got down to 245 lbs with the help of some thyroid medications. I don't feel guilty. As a matter of fact my boyfriend and I were eating Hot Apple Pie I made. I can't eat normally half the pie, like I used to, but I don't deprive myself. I really enjoyed that 1 slice. Life is good I feel good as I am sure most of us here do Take care and Bless you Peace...Lorraine