"Angel Girl" checking in...

What a crazy, depressing, mixed up summer it's been! Thank you all for your prayers and e-mails, they have been much needed and appreciated. I am sorry to have worried you all with my absence from here....to tell you the truth life has been hectic to say the least. I know it's not an excuse to not respond or reply or post. My son is doing better than ever in his treatment program. He has been clean and sober since Feb. 6th. This program has offered him many opportunities to better himself. I have my son back and it feels so good. I was diagnosed with hypoglycemia after a bout of depression with close to no intake of food. I am on the mend and on a healthy eating pattern now. My shrink says I've developed an eating disorder (anorexia), wtf do doctors know?! I am fine, I was depressed about the situation with my son and now I'm okay! I am keeping busy with lots of household projects, working my job, and still going to school. I am down to 179lbs. for a total loss of 214lbs!! I feel good, but there are things I am still getting used to with this new body. I can't say this has been very easy for me. I have been overweight all my life and this is such a transformation that I sometimes don't recognize the face in the mirror. I literally said excuse me to myself while shopping at Target, thinking it was another shopper I almost ran into, then realized it was me. Life is not all that bad and I know there are people in a much worse place then me right now, but for me ....well it's just the way it is I guess. Love and peace to you all~ Diane By the way, Thank you for caring so much...it means alot!

Good to see you back. You were missed. Nona

Hey Nona ~ It's good to see you too! I am so sorry to read of all the health issues you've been having and at the same time am happy it's nothing that can't be taken care of eventually. I hope your feeling 100% very soon. Take care! Diane

Diane, Hi there and how are you doing? girl I am glad to hear you are OK. I am also happy to know you have your son back again. I put my daughter out in March. I was so hapy she left. I know that sounds bad.... but it was time. She will be 29 in October. She has become very hostile since my WLS. She was rude before, but it got worse. Your weight loss is wonderful. Keep up your great work. Please keep in touch. We miss you and are glad you got back to us. Peace and love......Lorraine

Ohh, Hi there to you too Lorraine, how the heck have you been??? Sorry to hear your daughter just never got over herself and could be happy for you and your new life. It seems such a shame that we try to raise our kids, give them more than what we had growing up, and sometimes the thanks we get is a slap in the face. Oh well, one day she'll come around and understand what she's losing out on.....A great person in her life! Just pray darlin' Have a wonderful day! Diane

WOW~I too am guilty of not coming here like I should This is the first time seeing your new pic....and you look amazing!!! Keep up the great work!! I couldn't imagine going through what you had to go through with your son, I would imagine anyone would get depressed.....tho when I am depressed I eat, A LOT!!!! You obviuosly aren't turning to food anymore, that is good. I still tend to have a problem with that If you feel you are okay now, and your eating Shrinks don't know everything, thats for sure!!!! Well anyways, wanted to say hi....and congrats to you and your son!! Be proud of both of you! Take Care jesi

Hiya' Jesi~ Thanks for the compliment and might I say you look great too....what a hottie! I am a little worried about the weight gain from having to eat more frequently now though. Although it has not happened yet, I still fear the gaining. This hypoglycemia is kicking my butt though, it is the worse damn feeling in the world. Just when I though I had it under control I had an attack the day I posted here (well that night). The doctors say I've probably been hypoglycemic all along, but before wls when my food intake was 3-4x as much I just never got attacks or never realized it. Anyhow~ my son is doing amazingly well in his program...I just miss him. My life is showing signs of stability though, so that is good. You keep up the good work Jesi....you look great! Diane

YAY! Thank you for writing. Last night I spent extra long praying for you and today TADA!!! As for the anorexia thing, I know how it is to be depressed over things going wrong with kids. Unfortunately for me, I ate when it happened to me. I don't think it is some mental problem when life overwhelms you sometimes. I think it does, in the long run, make us stronger, but it is not fun as you live through it. I am so happy that you are back and that things sound like they are improving. You picture does look wonderful and I feel such relief to see your post that I can't stop smiling. Allison

Allison~ I believe, as Lorraine does in Angels, the power of prayer. Your prayers and the fact you spent extra long on them just for me has been both appreciated and felt. Thank you so much for that! That whole anorexia diagnosis makes me so mad. Your right it's not a mental problem when life overwhelms us...it's just called LIFE! some people deal with problems much differently then others, but shrinks get paid to diagnose patients and he had to write something in his chart I guess. I really need to get a support system in place for myself is all. I am so busy taking care of everyone else's issues I tend to ignor myself and my needs. Comong back to this board is definetley a step in that direction. Glad I made you smile and again THANKS!! Diane