No Inspiration here....

Just feeling a bit down today. Ever wake up feeling like your a robot? It's the same ole' thing everyday, nothing new or exciting. I wake up, make the coffee, let the dogs out, put the birds out, do the dishes, pick up the crap all over the house (none of it mine), make the bed, etc.,etc.,etc. I want more but can't seem to get inspired to make a move on my so called "new life". It seems like I'm still stuck in my "fat" frame of mind that I'm not good enough to apply for a job, continue school, or seek out some new endevour (sp). Some days are better than others, but today is not one of my best. It does not help that I weighed myself this morning and the scale says I'm up 4lbs. which brings my monthly weight loss to nothing. I think I'll just go back to . I am ready to start living my life....... Thanks for letting me vent. Di~

READ this article... you will at least feel much better about your weight loss/gain! primusweb.com/fitnesspartner/library/weight/scale.htm just add the www. I hear ya....I see people talking about how much better they feel etc...all the energy yadda yadda yadda. I don't feel any better/different. I just weigh less. I can't/won't get motivated to exercise either...maybe that would give me the energy??? At least you pick up the house...I don't even want to do that after work and school! I am "miserable" in my chosen line of work. Unchallenged, bored, don't care about it etc....so I found something I was interested in and went back to school for it 1 1/2 yrs ago. 1 more year to go. IF I don't fail my test tomorrow night that I can't seem to buckle down and study for. SOOOO think about what it is you would REALLY REALLY like to do! AND then figure out how to accomplish that goal. You won't get excited about doing something if you don't care about it enough. Don't waste your time otherwise.

Hey thanks for the article link. It helped me learn a little more than I knew. So, I put on some make-up and got dressed for job hunting...still not feeling all that positive but will give it a go. Let ya' know what happens. Thanks! Di~

I have lost weight, but I am still FAT! I am not in regular sizes, I have not lost 100 lbs, and I have to encourage myself every day. Sometimes, I take a knife to my throat and say, EXERCISE OR I WILL KILL YOU! (I'm kidding, but that is how badly I do NOT want to exercise on some days.) I am super careful about what I eat. I don't allow myself ANY sugar. I can't say I have never had a taste of carbs, sometimes I take a spoon of mashed potatoes, but not just junk food. I am very happy when I see everyone else's success, and I pray every day for them and for myself to get down to a "normal" size. I just try not to let myself think of any of this. Hard not to compare yourself to the majority. I am only saying all of this so you know you are not alone in how you are feeling today. And it is hard cleaning up messes that you don't make. It has always made me feel like a slave. There is a difference between cleaning the house and cleaning up after a bunch of lazy people. I luckily got more vocal about people cleaning up after themselves, especially my husband!!! (it only took 25 years for me to start saying something) I will pray for you and every time I remember through the day how you are feeling, I will pray again.

Wow, I needed your post! I had to make sure I didn't write it lol. I keep wondering when that great motivation and energy everyone boasts about is going to hit me. I just tell myself that I am lazzy by nature and that it's ok. I wasn't one of those who was lazy because I was fat and waiting to break out of my shell. I got fat because I'm lazy. I did finally go back to school, but it was more because I need the extra financil aid money to get by then because I am motivated to make my proffesional dreams come true. I go to the gym two times a week, but I have to make myself. It is feeling more and more like work and a lot less like something enjoyable. I keep hoping that if I keep gettin up everyday and pushing forward that something will spark my interest and lead the way. Good wishful thinking huh? I don't have much advice- just wanted to tell you that I can understand what you are going through. Hopefully tomorrow will be better ((HUGS)) Shawna 360/240/190

Thanks you guys for making me feel not so alone. I really appreciate all the feedback. Hugs, Di~

I've just started work and I miss my free time to exercise and do what I want during the day. :') No two people are alike! But I have to work....to go shopping.....to buy new clothes! luvitsunnyv