Lets Get Real For A Minute

Thanks for being sooo open and honest! We all probably think/feel a lot of the same things but are afraid to say it! I know I have lost a lot of weight but I am still basically wearing plus sizes to a certain extent (granted the bottom end of the scale) but I still feel a lot fatter than I want too.... I still remember being smaller and going out clubbing less than 10 yrs ago when I was 21, 22 ...so I didn't really miss out on all that wild and craziness. My only wish is to look hot and skinny and manage to run into guys that rejected me only because of my weight in my mid 20's. I think the reason we don't go out a lot and party is because it ends up costing a decent bit of $$ and we are always trying to save (esp now with me only having a job for 2 more weeks). PLUS I can't hang anymore!!! Even with the weight gone! I would like to go dancing but I don't have any girlfriends around here without babies they have to take care of....heaven forbid people get a babysitter around here! (or aren't pregnant!) I hope my hubby and I will at least go dancing at 1 place while we are on vacation--that is my goal! I am still a bit intimidated --even more so around strangers?? How weird is that? I don't even know these people and will NEVER EVER see them again in all likelihood but yet I am petrified about what they might think.