The Blues

I feel really down today. Maybe hormones. I had a partial hysterectomy in '85, but I still have one working ovary. I gained two pounds this week and feel completely bloated and am craving chocolate like a demon I am feeling like crying and screaming at the same time. No hot flashes, night sweats or anything like that yet. (I'm 52) Just feeling blue and depressed. So sorry to hear of the broken arm and losing the horse. I adore horses and have lost beloved pets over the years. Neat about the lawn chair. If I've missed anyone, I'm sorry. Just felt like talking. Now I think I'm going to have a hot and go take a long, long Nona

Hi, Nona. I'm sorry to hear about your blues. Could be the hormones- I like to blame them for everything. (Gets men to shut-up in a hurry.) I'd probably feel like screaming too, except the pain meds have me so sleepy all I can do is doze and try not to cry. I went to see my horse last night, and the thought of selling her is killing me. I really don't have a choice, though. I can't afford two, and I'll never trust her to ride again. It's just hard, when all she is doing now is nickering to me and nuzzling my cheek. Hope you feel better soon. I think I'll go take a nap now. Deb

I don't know much about horses, but it is possible there's a medical reason? Maybe tender whithers? Or something in her blanket or saddle that hurts when its on her back? Just an idea. Hope your arm feels better soon, and your heart, too. Nona

We've had her thoroughly checked, and she's sound as can be. Her problem serems to be located right between her eyes, in that little horse brain. Doesn't really matter to me anymore, because I would never feel safe on her again. Can't have my passion turning into a chore. I hope you're feeling better too. Those chocolate cravings are just awful. Have you tried something like a Balance or Zone Perfect Bar in a chocolate flavor? It's not Godiva, but it helps satisfy my cravings. Thanks for caring. Deb

Well, it was a thought. But you're right. You have to watch out for you. The next time could be your neck that gets broken. Still, I know it must be hard to let go of someone you love so much. I remember when I had to give a dog away that I adored. I cried for weeks, but he got a really good home. They kept him till he died of old age at 20 years. I had a protein bar, Detour, for my mid day meal. That seemed to help the chocolate thing. But I'm still bloated and feeling down. Hopefully, in a couple of days, that,too will pass. Thanks for listening. Nona