Boy do I know the Guilty feeling.

I slipped today big time; I had a piece of cheesecake and a cookie and I didn't get sick but I wish i would of..... I just felt terriable for letting myself slip like that, usually if i have a craving i have a small bite and let it go but for some reason it took over today and i lost control but I just hope I can get myself back on track and not do that again. But I have been really tired lately does anyone else get like that? I also have been feeling more hungery lately I don't know if its mind over matter or if my old ways are returning and my stomach is stretching I also find it very hard not to drink when I eat; does anyone find it that hard as well and what can I do??? I am so worried about gaining the weight I have lost back or stop losing I have a long long way to go yet I am still over 400lbs and I want so badly to be at least 250lb. I just have a hard time with exercise because of my back (two blown disks) and my left leg is numb from the top of my butt to the tip of my toe so its hard to walk and exercise although I am going to try and start swimming for therapy next week. But anyways thanks for all the support and I just hope we all get to were we want to be, I know it took us years to get where were at now so it will take time to fix our new lives. Well take care and talk to you all soon. Diana

Hi there Diana, What is this true confession day? At least we have each other to confide in I have been feeling more hungry lately but there is only so much I can eat, so it is mental hunger also. I am beginning to digest meat much better. I just graduated to a turkey burger which stayed down well. Tomorrow I will try regular hamburger. WISH ME LUCK. I hurt my knee so I took one month off of Curves until MRI results come back. You have done well Diana and the rest of your weight will come off,just be patient. I absolutely can't eat and drink so that is a NO NO for me. You are very limited to what you can have so try to make good choices. I must remember the same thing. LET THAT BE OUR OK? Lets just stay focused and continue our journey ok? ... Lorraine rny 12/15/03....245 lbs 6/9/04.............153 lbs THIS IS DRS GOAL -92 lbs DRS IDEAL GOAL 135?????????????? Can I make it there? I'll try

WOW, You all are much more brave than I am. I am still scared to death of sugar. The only sugar that I have had (other than more than 3 or 4 down on an ingredients list) is on Valentines day, I nibbled on a mini reeses cup...took me two hours to eat that silly little thing...I was affraid that if I ate it in one bite, I would be sick. I want cookies!!!! Or brownies, or a krispy kreme donut! Mmmmmmmm...I am just too affraid to try them! My great naughty treat now is WATERMELON! I know I am not supposed to have a lot of fruit, but I keep a bowl of it in the fridge with chunks and eat it all day long! I'm BAD!!!!!!!! Don't beat yourself up! Tracy

I try to stick to under 15-20 grams of sugar. That is what my nurse told me 10 days out from surgery. SO far it has worked for me. My morning yoghurts have anywhere from 8- 15 sugar grams. NO problemos. I can eat mini regular candies-- I tend to stick with chocolate because it has other things besides PURE sugar in it unlike the licorice, taffy and gummies I really really CRAVE!! I like chewy candy. chocolate has (especially dark) has a lower glycemic index to it.... last night I had two bites of a dark choc. kit kat. Hubby got 2 bags of mini chocolates...kit kats, reeses, rolo's and something else. But they are perfect to quench that sweet craving and PORTION CONTROLLED!!!! I hear ya on the KRISPY KREME.....I refuse to give into the DONUT devil. I allow myself bites of all other kinds of desert-- cakes, pies, ice cream, BUT I feel like donuts are the ultimate EVIL for some reason. WHO knows but I feel like I will have lost control if I have 1. AND I don't think I could stop at just 1 bite like I can of my candy bars. YES, I am nutso!!!!

Hey Tracy, If you haven't had sugar... don't!! I too was a bit brave and found out that I am not one who dumps. Don't get me wrong, sometimes I throw up but I don't dump and that scares the begeesees out of me! I did try half of a Krispy Kreme doughnut... it was so good going down but guess what... 10 mins later it was right back out again! They have way too much sugar for me. I have found out that I can tolerate stuff that has less than 15g of sugar... any more than that and I toss my cookies...lol. Girl Scout Thin Mint cookies were the first "real" sugar I tried and I was fine with those. I think they only had like 5g sugar a cookie and I had just 2 in the first sitting and another day 3 (never more than 3 cookies though). I am so glad they aren't sold year round...lol. ~Rachel

I have actually tried cheescake twice. I ate 1/2 piece. It was soooo good. I did feel guilty too. But it did have 4 grams of protein. There is way too much sugar though so that's why I have stayed away from it since then. Try not to beat yourself up over it. You will be able to exercise more as you lose more. I now have so much less pain than before. I too want to lose faster, but I try and remind myself to be patient and remind myself how much better I feel today than I did December 21st 2003. It's a miracle that's for sure. Good luck on your continued journey.