Hormones SUCK! Venting

How long are these raging hormones going to continue? I'm getting a little tired of having to explain, through the tears, that I'm not really upset, it's just hormones. Today's ordeal was a horse show. Due to my weight and injuries, this was the first show I was ever able to ride my mare in. Basically, we sucked. It was just a small school show, and I was only doing it to get us both some experience. I was just happy that we got through it without an involuntary parting of ways, so to speak. But could the raging estrogen be happy with that? Oh, no, I have to go off weeping just because the mare threw a tantrum and we came in last in a class we could have won. I was pleased that I didn't go flying through the air, what was the about? And I have to deal with people thinking I'm just being a big baby/sore loser. Aaaaaaaaaaaggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh! Ok, thanks for letting me vent. I feel better. To all those people out there who thought I was being a bad loser - I'm a really good loser. 95 pounds from my all time high, so who you calling a bad loser? Thanks! Deb

Hi, Deb! We must be cycling at the same time! My mood swings make Attila the Hun look like Mrs. Cleaver. Also, let's trade calf problems! I've lost 80 pounds, everything else is shrinking dramatically, BUT MY CALVES HAVE NOT SHRUNK ONE IOTA. They are the same as the day before surgery. Isn't that wild? My thighs have shrunk, but NOT my lower legs, so they're almost the same size. My legs are beginning to look like Scrub Oak logs - straight up and down, rolled and wrinkled, veined and dimpled and pale. So very attractive. Good work on your loss! You're the kind of Loser I want to be! Donna

Thanks, Donna! I guess I should stop complaining about the calves. Maybe you just have incredibly muscular calves and forgot to put a layer of fat on them? I'm feeling a lot better now that I've seen the video of the tantrum. If I ever decide to change careers, I think I could join the rodeo. Looks like girlfriend did her worst, and Deb stayed on. Yippee! (Hey, they gave me a pity ribbon anyway.) Now I'm on the other side of the mood swing. Happy Girl is here. Deb