Very Depressed!

Hello All...I just wanted to post and maybe look for some words of comfort. I have been VERY depressed here lately. First of all....I am unemployed. I was laid off in January, and I can not see to find a job anywhere. I am very depressed by this. Then again I worry about the hairloss...I am only submitting my resume by mail or fax so they do not see me. I have been told too many times about how no one wants to hire a "Fat, Lazy Employee." I have not only that to worry about, but I am losing my hair so badly that I am fat and bald! I was really riding high on my weightloss. I thought that I had lost alot more than I actually had. This is the reason....I purchased a Siltec Scale (Digital 500# cap.) Pre-Op. It was the same scale that my Surgeon had, and I also have a problem with my feet being so large. (Size 12 Mens.) The regular scale that we have here at our house has a very large dial (Dinner Plate Size) and it does not allow all of my foot to rest on the pad. I am starting to ramble...Sorry.....Well...The reason that I was having to weigh on the one with the large dial is because we had a electrical storm one night and my digital scale got fried. I started to weigh on the other scale just to kind of have an idea. I guess that I was teetering too much because I thought that I had lost 90 pounds. Come to find out today (I had the scale repaired) I have only lost 73 lbs. since surgery. I know that I am pretty much right around there with everyone. I am just feeling really bad. I guess that I am not sure what to put my finger on as the root of the depression. 1) Not having/finding a job. 2) Cleaning up more hair on the floor/drain/brush than I was ever concious of having on my head 3) Feeling like a failure for not having lost as much as I thought I had? Not really sure...All I know is that during the 6 weeks that I was without my digital scale I haven't been as strict about my diet. Don't get me wrong, I don't go overboard or anything, but I guess not seeing the scale go down everyday (I was a chronic weigher) did not keep me on my toes. I have vowed to myself that I will eat all of my protein, drink all of my water, walk 4 miles a day, and find a job. Above all...I must be happy!!! I am not a person that has ever suffered from depression. I guess that I just have alot on my plate right now and am down a little from that. Thank you all for listening. Sorry that this is soooo long. I know that you all understand what I am going through. Thanks for allowing me to share with you all. Love, Ecila -Only 73 lbs. 426/403/330/180

Ecila, 73lbs is an awesome weight loss I am right there with you The hair loss thing is a total bummer I could make a fireside rug with the hair I have lost ( a small one at least ) I think it is pretty normal for us to be feeling down right now. It is kind of like we are in limbo...not lost enough weight to be where we want to be, but have really started to see the flabby skin and thining hair. Just remeber this is temporary!!!!! Your hair will grow back, you will hit 90lbs loss and then some, and you will feel better Love ya, Jackie

Hello Ecila, At 73 pounds lost, you are still above me! I don't think that you can blame any one thing for your depression more of a combination of all the culprits. We are all going through the same things now. I think we have all been down a bit this month. Hormones are hell! Just know that this is temporary, it will get better! Your hair will start to regrow any time now, you will get to your goal weight and you WILL find a job! What type of work are you looking for? Maybe try another field. You would be great working with people! I'd like to know who said that no one wants to hire a fat, lazy worker! I see them wherever I go! hee hee If this depressions hangs on much longer you shuld think about getting on some meds, just to help you through the tough times. These hormones can amke anyone depressed and need meds. Don't feel bad about getting help! We are all here for you! Tracy

Ecila, Sending a big (hug)) to you. This has been a tough month. I think Jackie picked the right word--in limbo. We're in the middle of the journey, but not there yet. All we can do is the best we can, and one day we'll be at goal!! Lisa G

Hello Ecila, I am sorry you are feeling down. You are right... we do understand. I just posted the other day how yucky I was feeling. I also experienced what you did with thinking you lost more... not just recently but earlier on. There was a discrepency somewhere with one of the three scales I weigh on (here, the gym, the dr's) and when I found out I was CRUSHED!!!! It was just as bad as if I had gained the difference back! Everyone is right though.... this is limbo ... a transition and there are definately ups and downs. I know it's hard, but try to focus on the accomplishments and think ahead to your goal. The things we are going through are temporary... our hair will grow back, our scales will keep moving... and you have made a great choice by rededicating to protein and water and exercise!!!!!! HUGS and best wishes. We will make it!!!!!! Shawna

Ecila, "Only 73lbs" You should be so proud of those 73lbs!! Think of it this way...when was the last time you lost 73lbs in less than 5 months? You are doing fantastic with your weight loss....be proud of your accomplishment Every Morning my bathroom sink looks like a birds nest with all the hair that is falling out, but it is okay. Our hair WILL grow back in You do have alot on your plate right now and it is okay to be a little down.We all understand and will be here to listen and encourage you along the way. Hang in there...it will get easier, I promise ~Kimberly

Ecila, It's so tough to be in the "Sloppy Floppies". Bald, at that! But this, too, shall pass. You WILL get a job, and NOBODY is going to notice your hair loss anywhere near as much as you do. You are right on target with your weight loss. How cruel of that #@$% scale to fool you like that. Chuck that puppy out the window, serves it right, you betcha! Hope you feel better soon. You are doing so well, this is just a blip on the radar screen - all will be well soon! Hugs, Donna