4 month anniversary today!!

Hello to everyone! Today is my 4 month anniversary after surgery. I have now lost 64 pounds. I still have about 72 more pounds to go to my goal of 115 pounds. I am kind of rethinking my goal weight as with all the skin, I may want to stop at about 125 THEN get plastic surgery to get down to my 115 goal. If I get to 115 before tummy tuck etc. I might be too skinny after the surgery. If they take off about 10 pounds of skin. I guess that makes sense. We'll cross that bridge when we come to it. I lost 12 pounds this month. (12th to 12th) Which is a little more than last month. I went out this weekend with my husband and our friend Richard. We went out to dinner and I wore this BRAZEN outfit! A VERY short asymmetrical (jagged) hem leopard print skirt with a camel color (tight) asymmetrical hem, off the shoulder and tie around the neck shirt. (Hard to explain) I had just got it and was not real certain of how I looked in it. So, before going out I tried it on and asked everyones opinion. All said it looked great. I just don't know anymore. When I was fatter, I knew what I could get away with and what I couldn't, I knew my body. Now I just don't anymore. My self image is way off according to my husband as he thinks I still see that fat girl in the mirror. I do! We went out to dinner, I felt pretty good. I didn't get any nasty looks, but a couple of nice ones! So, I felt good. Richard (who is one not to compliment easily and easy to insult) called me "LEGS" and also paid me several other compliments that evening. Thats a big deal to me! So, I guess I pulled off my hoochie outfit afterall! Happy anniversary to me! Tracy 251/187/115 12-12-03

Hey girl..Congrats....You are 10 days ahead of me. Glad that you had a good time. I am still hiding in all of my "really fat clothes." I do not have the money to go buy something daring right now. Have a great day!! Ecila

Hello Ecila, Thanks for replying. I sold my old clothes to afford new ones. Thats how I could do it. Don't hide in your fat clothes, you are beautiful! Tracy

You go girl! You're doing great Lisa G

Thanks Lisa! Your new photo looks SO GREAT! YOU go girl! Tracy

I am so proud of you Tracy! I am a couple of weeks ahead of you and you are about where I am at pounds lost. I went out to dinner w/ the kids for my birthday (hubby comes home from Iraq this week!!) and I wore some shorts and a size L shirt from old navy and I thought I looked okay... nothing fancy. I ran into my husbands lt. colonel and he and his wife told me I look fantastic. I am always worried about how an outfit looks on me. Am I too big for this? Does this hang right on me? I can't wait to go buy some "sexy" clothes for me and hubby!! ~Rachel

Hello Rachel, Thanks for replying! I bet you are so excited to see your husband, and for him to see the new you! Aren't size Larges great?! lol It is so hard to get to reknow your body. Maybe once we are at a steady weight for a while we will learn what looks good on us! Make sure you post when your hubby comes home with his reaction! Tracy

CONGRATULATIONS!!! You are doing so well! I so hear you on the body image and not knowing what I can get away with. Before surgery I would always be saying.... "am i as big as her?" well now i can tell when someone is bigger, but i am looking at some girls that just have a little too much of "this and that" hanging out of "here and there" and going "do I look like that?" Its different.... good job and I'm glad you felt good. Welcome to the best parts of our journey!!!!! Shawna 360/278/200

Hi Shawna, Thanks for responding to my post. I was the same way! Always saying Am I as big as her??? My husband always thought my self image was warped, he said I always pick out women twice my size to compare myself to. He STILL thinks it is warped. I always thought he was blind with love for me and could not see the flaws and such as I do. Who knows who is right?! Now I don't know who to compare myself with. I went into a store and all they had was the shirt in a size L.. said, too bad, I'd never fit into that, the sales lady said You WILL fit into this...I tried it and it DID FIT! So, I know my perception of me is still off. We will get better at it though! Tracy

You go hot legs