Thanks to everyone *****sponded...
Thank you ALL for your responses!!!!! 
I understand what everyone is saying and I need to have some patience... sometimes when I identify a problem then all's I want is an immediate solution.... I think it's part of the control freak in me. I am going to a gym and decided to do water aerobics a lot for the socialization instead of the work out. I sure wasn't talking to any of the 18 year old's in a size 2 who could run the treadmill for an hour while I mosied along at 3 miles per hour for 20 minutes. 
I guess I got so caught up in my long time friends who were just easier because I already knew them and really neither of us were working on the relationships. They were also a lot more tolerant of the stupid relationship I was in, which is what I think I wanted at the time... and now looking back I wish I would have been more honest and perhaps they would have too. Maybe I gave off my own vibes that said I didn't want anyone's opinions and thats what I perceived as no one caring? (I also had a very close friend who chose not to have me in her wedding and I'm not sure why and I took that quite personally, but thats another story) I am sure you are all right, it will take time. I had made that horrible guy my social situation and I guess I am just not sure where to get back into things. I am going back to school in May and perhaps I will meet some people in College. Smart men even.... well.... maybe... LOL
I am so glad I decided to post and it feels so good not to have that all inside, spinning my wheels, making me feel crazy. Thank you all for your support. 
Shawna
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I understand what everyone is saying and I need to have some patience... sometimes when I identify a problem then all's I want is an immediate solution.... I think it's part of the control freak in me. I am going to a gym and decided to do water aerobics a lot for the socialization instead of the work out. I sure wasn't talking to any of the 18 year old's in a size 2 who could run the treadmill for an hour while I mosied along at 3 miles per hour for 20 minutes.
I guess I got so caught up in my long time friends who were just easier because I already knew them and really neither of us were working on the relationships. They were also a lot more tolerant of the stupid relationship I was in, which is what I think I wanted at the time... and now looking back I wish I would have been more honest and perhaps they would have too. Maybe I gave off my own vibes that said I didn't want anyone's opinions and thats what I perceived as no one caring? (I also had a very close friend who chose not to have me in her wedding and I'm not sure why and I took that quite personally, but thats another story) I am sure you are all right, it will take time. I had made that horrible guy my social situation and I guess I am just not sure where to get back into things. I am going back to school in May and perhaps I will meet some people in College. Smart men even.... well.... maybe... LOL
I am so glad I decided to post and it feels so good not to have that all inside, spinning my wheels, making me feel crazy. Thank you all for your support.
Shawna
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