I've been having bouts with depression

Hi I have been trying to stay positive. It has been six days since my surgery and my antidepressant did not come in liquid form. Physically I feel pretty good. Lots of things going on--this will be the first Christmas my son and his wife won't be here for Christmas (they live in Hawaii now and I say good for them.) My daughter's family will be moving 3 hours away right after Christmas. I am divorced and have always been friends with my ex. His new girlfriend has made it very clear to me and others she really only cares about herself. She thinks she is a Barbie and has been very insultive to me when he has not been in the room. It was also the first time he has not called or visited when I had my surgery 6 days ago. He also has pnuenionia (sorry about the spelling) Sadness appears. I am feeling lonely and not sure what direction my life is taking. It has to be all the changes to my body. I had a hard time getting the hospital to find an antidepressant. I had gone as instructed to my primary care doctor and we made all the arrangements for the medications. Boy was it frustrating and I started downhill from there. But thank God and I do that my daughter was my after care person. She has been wonderful but has sooooooooo many things going on with her move I am working hard to go back home and also finanically everything is a mess and it is Christmas. I have been a nanny for two families and things between them got wierd, the one house was always a wreck and I never felt appreciated and they paid horribly because they were having $$$ problems. I couldn't answer the phone---BILL COLLECTORS not mine but theirs. Then I caught them in a lie and now they have not paid me. It couldn't be worse--can pay my rent or bills. Things have got to change. Help!!!!

I know how you feel been on that boat , I don't mean to sound hard but it is time for you to get your own life !!!!!! AS for Christmas it's God's brithday , talk to him he can and will move mountain for his own and we are all his like it or not no matter the color or how we pray.You need someone to talk to e-mail me I have been on the ride you are on it's time for us to do some living. Think how Mary felt having her frist baby in a strange town and miles away from Mom.The ex is not the only man who will love you give someone else a chance.