off track..feeling miserable
hello. i am a 34 soon to be 35. i started at 312 and got down at my lowest to 160. I never hit goal but I was so close. I went from a size 26/28..going into 30 to a 10..wow. I do not think I was a ten even in grade school. I got to a point..around a 12/14 where I said you know this is good enough. You look good and you need to move forward. I paid and had a tummy tuck and my arms done...20 days later I got PREGNANT! Having never had any children other than my two step children...wow. I hated being pregnant because I felt so crappy. I gained forty pounds wth my wonderful little man..(Myles) but here I am on the other side not having lost the weight. i feel stranded in the 200s (218). I feel so dissapointed and ashamed. Having a family and balancing a full time job with an infant and two here half the time step kids and a husband who works a swing shift....well..i have lost myself and it just seems so hard. I spend my time doing for everyone else and i am exhausted at the end of the day...it...it..you know (food) has become my best friend again...even if it makes me sick. my favorite part of the day is a snack in bed before I turn the lights off. It helps me sleep and it makes me feel warm and fuzzy. ..thanks for the vent....my skinny family do not understand. they came along after the surgery (not far out enough to have gotten invovled really) so they have no clue what I went through.
Shannon, Hi there and how are you? You are not alone in your battle of maintaining your weight after this almost post-op period of 4 years. You have your wonderful new baby and now you are disappointed. We are not feeling this way about you. I consider you a winner.I know from myself speaking I feel like this and I am sure the rest of us do. You are still 100 lbs less than before, so in my opinion you are still ahead. 
to you. Now get back on track and remember you have come so far and have done so well;
Have something better in the evening like a sugar free hot choclate or a protein drink to feel warm and fuzzy. I am about 5 lbs over my lowest weight and I struggle every day. So remember you are not alone and we love you. Forget about your skinny family not understanding. Just learn to understand yourself. Everyday is a learning experience and we are learning. My daughter had WLS surgery in 2000 and weighed in at 350 lbs . She has gained it all back and 50 lbs more. My sister and my neice had banding done and both are heavier than before. We do not hurt each others feeling or comment. We just love each other uncondtionally.
Keep your head up and keep the faith.
Work with the tool you have.
and 
to you!
Lorraine
to you. Now get back on track and remember you have come so far and have done so well;
Have something better in the evening like a sugar free hot choclate or a protein drink to feel warm and fuzzy. I am about 5 lbs over my lowest weight and I struggle every day. So remember you are not alone and we love you. Forget about your skinny family not understanding. Just learn to understand yourself. Everyday is a learning experience and we are learning. My daughter had WLS surgery in 2000 and weighed in at 350 lbs . She has gained it all back and 50 lbs more. My sister and my neice had banding done and both are heavier than before. We do not hurt each others feeling or comment. We just love each other uncondtionally.
Keep your head up and keep the faith.
Work with the tool you have.
and to you!
Lorraine 
Congratulations on the baby. Its a difficult thing. The only successful diet expeience I had ended with my third pregnancy. But I wouldn't trade those 50# for my wonderful daughter who will be 21 next month. You have the tool....just start using it. Cut out those snacks. I told someone at support last night...you don't know there are rats in the basement until you open the door. If you open the door to garbage foods, you open the door to gaining. SHUT THAT DOOR Shannon!
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