Well time sure does fly when your having fun LOL. Dec 6th will be my 2nd anniversary. and I have loss all my wt except the last 40 or so lbs. which by the way is the hardest to lose. I admit I have been slipping and not staying focused like I once was. I wonder if it's because I'm more or less pleased with my success. I guess it's a head thing. But I have news for my darn head. I'm not ready to stop my wl and I do want to get to my goal. So the wl battle is still on. I vow to give it all I have to reach my goal wt. also on 10/19th is my plastic surgery date. If it's Gods will. I know by taking off my apron it will also place me closer to my goal. Best wishes to everyone on your wl journey. hang in there our anniversary is right around the corner. Let's do the darn thing. So we can have a great big celebration. LOL take care**hugs** 400 lbs/189 lbs

Hi Dee..... thanks...... I guess there are alot of us feeling this way ...I just returned from 18 days of vacation and am afraid to look at the scale.. I am hoping it won't be too bad as I did get alot of walking and running around exercise and not to mention I got to sleep nights.... I work the night shift and lets face it ..... it dosn't help!!! I will write to you soon ......just got in the door from Maine..... Pam

Thanks for taking the time to respond to my post. You're right I was in kind of a defeatist mind set the day I wrote my first post. Everyone needs to count their blessings and I do everyday, it's just hard not to get mad at myself for falling into my same old habits.

Hello my name is Bridgette, I had lap RNY on 12/17/2002 and have lost 150 pounds. I am very grateful for the oppurtunity to have had this surgery and I very much want to be sucessful longterm. I never want to be 304 pounds again. For about the past 7 mos I have been struggling at maintaining my weight loss, through exercise and healthy food choices, but some days go astray. I know it is normal to be able to eat more in volumn at this point post op, but it is still scary. I find myself eating many times for reasons that are not related to hunger, such as anxiety, bordom, fear, tiredness, etc. I have tried many things to change this, such as anxiety meds, therapy, yoga, meditation, self help books,etc. I believe I have to work harder at changing my mental mindset and I am wondering if there is anyone out there who has come to this point and what has helped you the most. If there is any one out there who is curently working through this very thing, maybe we could email one another to help provide support to one another. There is a book called THIS IS NOT BRAIN SURGERY by DR. TERI HOLTZCLAW, with chapters on this very thing and short self help activities to guide you through the process. If anyone thinks they might benifit from this type of thing, maybe we could be a support to each other, please email me at [email protected] thanks Bridgette

I originally had problems with my back before i had sugery. I was told then if I lost weight it would help alot. This was not my reason for the sugery this was way before i even knew about the sugery. Well now I am 136 pounds lighter and my back is hurting more. I have found out that I have a pertruding disc in the bottom of my spine and arthritus is setting in my back and the lower spine curves way too much. I have also noticed that my tail bone hurts so much when sitting, sometimes walkig or even soaking in the tub so i try not to lay on my back to soak in the tub. It can feel like the bone is ready to just pop out and I seem to know when I lose more weight because the tail bone hurts more. I guess it is used to having padding for it and it no longer has. Am I the only one with this problem?