please help i am 7 years out and gaining 40+

i cant get back on track. i have been fighting this weight gain for over a year now. i have not been to any meeting. looking for local meeting and support group. did i destroy my pouch? why did all these old habbits come back 110%. i want so bad to be in control and cant get past a day without eating all the wrong food all day long. please any advise? should i look into the stomaphyx??????:? i keep hearing all this stuff about revisions. i never thought i would be going thru this again. i was a star patient. i lost 140 pounds. i was 10 pounds from goal. now i am back up again and all physical and emotional issues are back. 184 lbs to date
5'3" tall. 55 years old.
please help
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I just re-joined Obesity Help, to seek support and answers to my questions, as I am in the exact same boat as you are! I am so frustrated...and upset with myself. And I never thought I'd be going through this again.  My surgery was open RNY on Dec 18 2001 and I lost 165 lbs...half of me, as I started at 327 lbs, at 32 yrs of age.  Now Im 40, and I am weighing in at 234-240 depending on the day... Hanging my head... Feeling like a failure... How did this happen?  I was okay with 10 lbs, and the docs told me I looked better...  Then 20... Then got a little scared when I approached 30... Then felt some guilt and shame and a need to try to hide it, when I hit 40 lbs back on...and then it happened...I crossed the 200lb mark.  Something I swore I would NEVER let happen again.  Depression.  And now, here I sit at 240 lbs, and it's like the last 40 happened in my sleep.  I've been extremely anemic, with a Ferritin of 3, when finally discovered, and basically lifeless and flat affect, for this entire year.  It's like I've missed a year of my life....
  So...what do we do now?  Where do we turn?  Is there a diet to follow at this point?  My surgeon no longer is in business.  His key support group leader, is critically ill herself, so there is no support...and there are hundreds upon hundreds of patients of his, who must surely be needing support as well.  My surgeon was Dr. F.Edward Tenewitz, in Melbourne, FL.  Anyone out there, other than just me???  I feel so alone...
 Rhonda