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Great Job! 
Keep it up, you got it!
HW: 478+ Consult: 478 Pre Op: 453 SW: 438 CW: 293 (7-20-15) GW: 225 LBS Gone: 185
VSG with Dr. T. Ryan Heider at the Center for Surgical Weight Loss at Lake Norman 11-6-14
Found out today my surgery is 0930 on the 10th. She said I was second on the list. One week into optifast and not missing food anymore. Staying focused on the prize.
I felt like I was reading about my own life reading your post. My mom isn't against me having the surgery, but she is concerned about the odds of survival of the surgery. My mom has watched me yoyo all my life, and like you I could never keep the weight off for any length of time. It normal to have doubts and remember that your addiction to food is a living thing. It lives in our heads and it wants to be feed. Don't let it trick you into thinking "it not that bad" only you know what your life has been like and only you know what will make you happy. Good luck and enjoy the journey.
Thank you Sammy, today was a little difficult, and started questioning my choice for surgery.
I statrted this journey at 275 lbs that was in April, I'm currently 250 lbs. I remember that the Social Worker asked me what I think I will look like thinner. I told her, how would I know, I have never been thin. My health is also suffering now that I'm getting older (42) I can no longer control my diabetes, even on this liquid diet my BS is still 9.7, my BP is 113/153. I was surprised my doctor allowed me to leave. I have been on meds for it but always have allergic reactions. I have a fear of stroking out on the surgery table. I started to doubt my decision today for the surgery because my food addiction is live and well. I found myself telling myself that I can just do it on my own. I have never been able to do it on my own, if I do it is only for a short time, then regain what I lost and more. Your an inspiration to me and I'm sure others. Thanks again.
THE NAKED TRUTH.... WHY I'M HAVING WLS
I decided to write this post as something I could go back to and read when the nerves and fear begin to set in, or when I'm post op facing some of the common periods of buyer's remorse, stalls, and in case I have a weak moment and get off plan. I also want to share this for others who may be experiencing some of these very things.
So why am I having WLS?
1. God has convicted me several times about destroying the temple, and He has made a way for me to have WLS even when there seemed to be no way. I must obey God's will.
2. This Surgery is NOT ELECTIVE for me. If I do not have this surgery and change my lifestyle, I WILL DIE at a very early age.
3. My Wife NEEDS me. She is blind and she does so much for me, but actually she needs me to do for her. I have been physically unable to take care of her needs and she is suffering as a result.
4. I want to have children, They deserve nothing less than a loving father that is physically able to do what fathers do.
5. My family is really worried about me.
6. My health is failing me very fast, it is only a matter of time before I am in he hospital fighting for my life.
7. I hurt so terribly bad. I am literally in so much pain I can barely stand or walk for periods of 5 minutes or longer. I am tired of suffering.
8. I want to live life again, get out and actually do things. I also want to be able to do work for God's Kingdom.
9. I am more scared of Obesity related complications than I am surgery complications.
10. I want a career change, and without surgery my options may be severely limited.
11. I no longer want to live a life of "what ifs". (If i did this instead of that, I would be this.)
12. If diet and exercise alone worked for me, I would have had a significant weight loss in my early 20's as I was dedicated for 2+ years. I only lost 30lbs.
13. I'm done with excuses, it's either put up or shut up.
14. I'm tired of feeling old and disabled, I am only 34 and still young.
15. I don't want to sit dying of my obesity and regretting that I let this opportunity pass me by.
16. It is time for me to be happy, and experience the true joy of the Lord.
17. I want to experience all the NSVs others have shared.
18. I want to make God, My Wife, My Family, and My Friends proud of me.
I hope and pray when I come back to revisit this post, and I know I will. I want you to remember why you are or have done this. Get motivated and renew your commitment.
I also hope this helps those who need it. I think it's really important to know why we are considering, doing, or have done this. Sometimes we even need a reminder from time to time.
HW: 478+ Consult: 478 Pre Op: 453 SW: 438 CW: 293 (7-20-15) GW: 225 LBS Gone: 185
VSG with Dr. T. Ryan Heider at the Center for Surgical Weight Loss at Lake Norman 11-6-14
This time next week, I should be in recovery room, or wheeled to my hospital room, taking my place on the loser's bench. Realization is just now beginning to set in, and beginning to get a little nervous. I'm sure I will only become a bigger ball of nerves as the hours and seconds get closer and closer. Then a few hours after surgery, I will realize I was nervous for nothing! I am going back and revisiting my blog post about why I am doing this to remind me that God brought me to this, and He will see me through it as well. I want to thank everyone for their continued support through this process. I'll be sure to keep everyone updated as often as possible.
HW: 478+ Consult: 478 Pre Op: 453 SW: 438 CW: 293 (7-20-15) GW: 225 LBS Gone: 185
VSG with Dr. T. Ryan Heider at the Center for Surgical Weight Loss at Lake Norman 11-6-14
10-30-14 Day 22: Still not doing too bad, I will admit, I have not been perfect but I have done nothing to completely derail me. So far I'm down roughly 35lbs. The Optifast is not only getting old, but it's getting more and more unbearable to drink
. Good news is, I am in my last week and the short roads of this stuff, just a few more days and I will graduate from the Loser's Bench Boot Camp to a promotion to the Loser's Bench! 
HW: 478+ Consult: 478 Pre Op: 453 SW: 438 CW: 293 (7-20-15) GW: 225 LBS Gone: 185
VSG with Dr. T. Ryan Heider at the Center for Surgical Weight Loss at Lake Norman 11-6-14
Welcome to the group! I'm having my surgery next week, on week 3 of my preop diet. I will be sure to slide over and make a spot for ya on the loser's bench!
HW: 478+ Consult: 478 Pre Op: 453 SW: 438 CW: 293 (7-20-15) GW: 225 LBS Gone: 185
VSG with Dr. T. Ryan Heider at the Center for Surgical Weight Loss at Lake Norman 11-6-14
How cool! A forum for NOV 2014 wls patients!
It's nice to be able to meet others having their surgery around the same time I am.
My RNY is on Nov 12th and I'm on my second day of the 2 week pre-op diet. I've actually seen quite a bit of people having their surgery on the same day as me so that's pretty neat(:
How is everybody doing on their pre-op diet/ wait for surgery?
I'm so excited(:
Nice to meet you guys.
-Michelle
Thanks for the tips. I'm glad I only have to do this for two weeks. I'm sure most of it is in my head. Feel like I should be eating or cooking meals. Just a habit I guess. I am happy to hear your doing well, you have a strong attitude, I need to practice using mine.
