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I feel like I'm so far out... since i had my first GAIN of 3lbs! BOO! I track my calories and exercise, so I'm not sure what it's about, but I'm just gonna keep on keeping on. My lowest weight so far was 152. My goal was 150, and I'm happy and trying to maintain . MAINTAIN? That was my goal before I ever started this - was just to NOT GAIN weight. I'm certain I can keep in a range now. My size 6 (!!!!) pants tell me that I can do it!
I'm off insulin. BP meds gone. fought off the cholesterol meds before they made me take them. What a relief!
Yeah, the skin is gross, but nothing compared to the fat that is gone and the health that has returned.
I'm amazed and surprised every day. That I exercise..that I WANT to exercise!! Imagine that! I ran a 5K race this fall! That was a big moment for me - having never run before to training for and completing a 5K.
Today I'm wearing a pair of my sister's pants. My sister has always been the "tall and skinny one" in our family. She recently purged her closet of things she was tired of and thought I could use. I was thrilled to get some clothes that fit - and to actually share things with my sister?? AMAZING. if it weren't for the Sharpei strapped to my butt and thighs, we'd almost look similar!
So, I'm proud, astounded and thrilled for myself and everyone that we've done this. I've had an easy go of it so far, but I think this maintenance thing is gonna be hard. The normal fluctuations are going to make me batty - but keep me on target.
WHOOOHOOOO to my whole new life!
First 5K race October 4, 2009 (34.59) PR 5/22/11 (27:26)
First 5 Mile: January 1, 2011 (50:30)
First 10K: July 4, 2010 (1:03.26) New PR 4/10/11 (1:01.14)
First 10 Mile: April 11, 2010 (1:46.15)
First 1/2 marathon: June 13, 2010 (2:22.21) PR: 5/1/11 (2:17.30)
First Marathon: October 16, 2011: 5:47:20
Goofy Challenge: January 7-8, 2012
If you think you can, you can. If you think you can't, you're right. - Mary Kay Ash
I am maintaining very well. As long as I remember to eat, I'm doing ok. LOL I can't really eat sweets, and I don't really crave them at all either. that's the one I thought I'd have a hard time with. So I find it pretty easy to keep it all up. I don't know if it will be as easy later on though.
I also would love to hear how everyone else is doing. :)
Good Evening November Surgiversaries!
I find it almost inconceivable that I am rapidly approaching my one year surgiversary! How about you? Are you where you wanted to be? Are you where you thought you'd be?
So many of us start out at a vast difference in weights, have different goals, expectations, varying degrees of loss, etc. I would love to hear how everyone is feeling about their success and challenges. Do you find it harder the further out we get, or did the light switch go off and the behavior changed?
I know we aren't a very active board (which has bummed me out a little, and I believe OH offers a great support system, but I am guilty of not getting on here as often as I should,could, etc.)
My take so far:
I am not where I want to be (need to lose about 17lbs more), but have far exceeded my expectations of where I thought I'd be!
I am so, so grateful I had this surgery. I have regained my health and my life.
I have learned that losing weight does not solve everything. It doesn't fix financial worries, doesn't find your husband a job when he is laid-off, and many of the other challenges we face in life.
It feels incredible to weigh less than I did in high school! It feels even better to lose the CPAP (no more apnea), have low blood pressure and glucose levels, be 2% points away from a "Normal" BMI- heck I've never been a "normal" anything!
I feel confidence increasing every day (even though I still struggle with some body dysmorphia and see a "fat girl" when I look in the mirror).
At moments, when I can see how much smaller I am in clothes (I've gone from a tight 32 to size 12) and I can take pride in what I've accomplished, I take my clothes off for a shower and see a Sharpei in the mirror! The skin issues are horrible!
I know I have given it my best shot to be around and raise my twins 7 year old boys. I wanted to be around to raise them, to run and have adventures instead of sitting on the sidelines winded. Life has no guarantees that I will not get some other illness, etc., but at least I took morbid obesity off my list and all it's associated risks!
So please share your highs and lows and a Big Congratulations on your 1st surgiversary and all that you've accomplished!
on 10/29/09 12:00 am - east falmouth, MA
I am fully aware that I am eating wrong and not exercising and just don't have it as together as I should...
Besides that, I feel thin enough for now..I am not real sure specific goals are something I want to make and break too often...
I don't really want the diet and numbers game to be my game... I do think it is time to get into a better frame of mind, and pattern of self care... I know when I am in a good place with that and it feels wonderful...So that is my goal, not a number. When the numbers change, great, but moistly I want the feeling of doing right.
Mostly I eat pretty well, feel better and exercise pretty well...I could do better...but the changes I have made in the last couple of years are spectacular!!!! Would it be reasonable to expect sooooo much more than this at this point...
I want my changes to be permanent,,, and I am finding that my body and mind do too.... I am also finding that pushing and feeling defeated with not making a goal and the occasional slip up in the food department is really not in our best interests.
I have felt so bad about my body for so many years... I 'm not so much about pushing myself as I am about trying to be patient, keep a good direction and keep loving myself into a better place.
the funny thing is ...my body is beginning to tell me what it needs and my mind is beginning to listen...
it's hard to describe, but just say rather than "chocolate!!!" popping into my mind when I feel frustrated... something like "breathe!" pops up.. my back hurts and rather than ADVIL I hear STRETCH....
So I am about stepping back and listening to my body a bit these days...Poor thing hardly ever got a word in in the past...so maybe i need to shut up and listen a bit.
it's an interesting project for sure...
Best of luck to all of us and blessings all round!!!
I am excited and nervous and scared. Just had to share ... I love my sleeve.
SW - 223 CW- 130 GW- 140 Start Sz 18 Current Sz 4 Ht. 5'6"
BA- LBL/TT 11/3/09
444.5 / 430.2 / 408.2 / 299.8 / 244.5 / 249 / 225
Highest / 07-11-08 / 11-25-08 / 06-07-09 / 03-25-10 / 01-31-11 / STG
