SHAWN - 6 POUNDS! WOW We know that isn't the BEST way to lose it (but take it and run girl - run!) I hope you get that medication into your system soon. Thanks for the encouragment - I really *HOPE* to get there! We'll see .... Keep us posted - I hope you are feeling better VERY Soon! hugs, Britt 6 pounds wow!!!!!!!!

thank you for sharing this!

My therapist asked me to write about my TT feelings and I thought I would share. Do you FEEL skinny? My sister began a recent conversation with this question. I suppose after someone has lost 185 pounds in 14 months and just had a lower body lift, this seemed like a reasonable question. My answer was a resounding "NO". When I thought about it more I began to wonder what skinny feels like. Does skinny feel like anything? Skinny isn't really a feeling so how could I feel skinny? That said I certainly have felt fat. Ok let's examine that a little. Did I feel fat? No fat isn't a feeling. When I was fat I often felt unloveable, worthless and fearful of social situations so when I say I felt fat that is what I really meant. In my minds eye skinny would feel the opposite of fat - so I'd feel loveable, worthy and confident. To be honest I do feel those things often but I don't think that it has to do with loosing weight. It has to do with working to love and respect myself. When I was morbidly obese (I started at 358) I didn't have a relationship with my body. Really, I didn't hate it. I didn't love it. It just was... I had spent so much time and energy developing my unhealthy relationship with food that I didn't have time for trivial things like relationships with people, a relationship with my Creator or a relationship with myself. I was so entrenched in my love affair with food that I didn't even realize the wonderful relationships being ignored by me. As I have gone through the process of dealing with my food addiction I have developed new relationships. Strengthened ones with family and with God. Even improved my relationship with me but I really hadn't thought much about my body. My mother is a large woman and I can remember when I developed a gut that stuck out - I wasn't flat any more. Instead of being disgusted I was excited - - this to me was a passage into womanhood. I am older and wiser now and realize that the flat tummy is what is more desirable. When my doctor started talking about a lower body lift it seemed like a pipe dream to me. Too good to really happen. I was happy I had lost the weight and I was living healthy. That is good. But heck ...I can chase a pipe dream a little so I went with what my doctor recommended. Low and behold -rather quickly things fell into place. I have that flat tummy but...now I can see all the other things on my body that are not what they should be. I find I have to focus on how far I've come. How much better I look and feel now than before. If I loose that focus I can get back to the place where I feel unloveable, worthless and fearful...in my size 12 jeans.

Hi Deb, Fitday is great - You can really SEE "where you are at" It keeps me 'on track' when I log my intake I eat much better - plus I am *aware* - It sounds like you have a good plan for your UNKNOWN meeting! I hate when you don't know. I do bad in those situations. I AM SURE YOUR 2 POUNDS WILL BE GONE soon enough with fitday and your exercise plan, have a great week Deb! Britt

Hello all, I hope that you had a great weekend. Happy New Year once again to all of you I've decided to give my self a 90 challenge (79 days left) at the gym to kick it up a notch. I really want to get to 135, I am not sure if that is possible. But ... I am going to give it a try and see where I wind up after 90 days. My Body seems comfortable at 140 - It does go up during the week sometimes (I weigh daily) but I *MAKE SURE* by Monday it says 140 ( I am a bit psycho with it! ) I did weigh 139 for 1 week and really loved seeing 1"3"9 on my scale ... since then its been on my mind and I am on a mission!!! Enough of me blabbering - here we go ... here are my stats ... (I FEEL LIKE A BROKEN RECORD ... LOL) Starting weight 250.5 Last week = 140 This week = 140 Loss this week = 0 Total loss = 110.5 Current BMI = 22.6 Be Determined! Quotes : Whatever your goals, your dreams, your wishes are KNOW that *anything* is possible! "Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe." Gail Devers quotes Keep in mind that neither success nor failure is ever final. Roger Ward Babson *We cannot let our guards down! CeCe brought up a great point "Reality is back! - We cannot get away with things that we might have over this last year! Reality is back!" Sending you all BIG BIG BIG hugs , Britt