My last blood work was in November for my one year check up. They were ok. Pattie

Good Morning all - I hope that you had a great weekend and are looking forward to a great week. I am! I agreed to take in a foster beagle. The woman who was head of beagle rescue in New Mexico passed away. She had about 20 dogs in her care. We are trying to find permanent or temporary homes for them all. So yes that will put me at 4 dogs and a cat. Something is bothering me and I don't know what it is. Sort of like a festering place - I know something is there but I think it will hurt to dig it out. Once it is dug out I'm sure it will fill better but that initial pain... One of the things that I have discovered this past year is that I don't have a weight problem. I have a food problem. To be honest the food part bothers me more than the weight. What I mean is if I could eat sanely and be fat - it would be OK to me. It is the eating sanely that is key. Yesterday was one of those - there is no way I can eat enough days. Sure key that something is not right emotionally. I fought it but lost often. At about 5:00 I decided that it was ridiculous and I was going to stop so I only had drinks after that and haven't eaten anything this morning other than protein drinks. I plan on yogurt for lunch and supper and plenty of protein. Sort of hlep me detox from the carbs. Perhaps without the food the emotional issue will be revealed. I find it so difficult to find the ballance between being kind to myself and not beeing too hard on myself. You see I want to show myself love but my initial way to show love is to feed someone. So I end up in a horrible loop - Trudy I love you here is some food. Trudy why are you eating that you don't need it and it isn't good for you. Now I feel horrible about myself. OH here is some food to make you feel better... and the cycle goes on - usually. I am working on breaking it but it has been going on for so long it is second nature to me. Start: 358 Last week:167.5 Today: 169 Up 1.5 pounds Total Loss: 189 I am not a failure - I am still trying. Love you! Trudy

I hate that you were feeling so down but I hope you are in a better frame of mind now. I know how hard it can be to sit and not do anything when we look around and see how much needs to get done! I hate that feeling myself. But just try to relax and not worry too much. Things will get better soon and you will be able to do more than you want! Have a great day! Susan

Welcome home! I've been thinking about you - glad you posted! Wow 11 pounds! Terrific! You are doing amazing feel better - you have a few ladies who have had PS here - if you have any questions. take care, Britt

Glad to hear everything went well and you are home recuperating. I wish for you a speedy recovery!