Bad Day / Good Day

Well, I have to say the past few days have been pretty rough for me... My Aunt passed away on Saturday and today was the funeral.... I was pretty close to her when I was younger but as I grew older I didn't see her as much and then not at all after I moved over an hour away.... Seeing my cousins (her kids), I think was harder than dealing with her death because she was so sick for so long and her passing was truly a blessing.... Her kids though were very tore up (as to be expected), and I think that was the hardest thing to deal with.... I am doing OK though and I don't want to bring to the board down sooo on to my good part of the day... I have been reading my "Beck" book... so I really have been focusing on that the past couple of days and not doing the "emotional" eating.... Today at the wake we went to Old Country Buffet.... Needless to say... tons of tasty food... just about everything to choose from, even my picky kids would have found food to eat... LOL.... I had.... one small piece of baked fish, a small piece of baked chicken, 3 pieces of broccoli, some summer squash (which I didn't eat after I tasted all the grease that was all over it) and a nice salad with some egg and cucumbers on it.... I by passed the desserts all together, while my mom had 2 and my dad had 5... yes you read that right 5!!!!!! Wonder where I got it from.... Anyway.. as bad as my day was from the funeral all day, I walked away from it all proud of myself for not giving into the potatoes, the breads, the biscuits, the gravy and the desserts.... So I overall had a good day and I am so glad that I am reading this book.... I am only on chapter 4, but I don't think I have ever gotten that far in a book.... It is really helping me to re-think things and make the "right" choices when it comes to what I put in my mouth.... When I didn't finish my chicken I really heard it from family that I NEED to clean my plate and I simply said that I couldn't and left it at that... They never said any more.... And I was not worried about what they thought.... Just thought I would share my bad/good day with my "other" family.... I am looking forward to our chat tomorrow night.... What am I supposed to read up too? I will have to make sure to keep the kiddos quiet tomorrow so I am all caught up.... Well, have a good night.... I gotta get some cleaning done tonight still before I put the kids to bed... HUGS to all, Shawn M.

Shawn, Pat yourself on the back, Girl! I'm so proud of you. Buffets are SO hard!!! I'm sorry to hear about your aunt though. I hope Britt will remind us of what pages we were supposed to read for tomorrow night. I can't remember either but I think you have probably covered it. Man, I hope I don't forget tomorrow night! CeCe

Thank you CeCe!!! I really hate to pat myself on the back but I was pretty proud of myself too... Everyone around me was having a contest as to how many plates they could eat... Many of my Aunts, Uncles and cousins were up to FIVE full platefuls.... and I had my little tiny scoops of food on one plate, plus a salad... and NO dessert.... I was sooooo proud of myself... I kept getting reminded of my Aunt (who would want us all to EAT UP), but I also know that my aunt would want us all be healthy.... So I stayed strong, didn't give into the temptation, the emotional eating or the guilt eating... Needless to say I read a chapter and a half of the book on the way to the funeral so that really helped my way of dealing with the food too (I rode with my parents)..... Anyway... I really appreciate your encouragement... It really means a lot to me... Thanks so much... HUGs, Shawn M.