Weekly Weigh in 5-5-08

Hello All - So tell me how did you do this week? me ... not so good I had a difficult *g r a z i n g* sort of week - ugh! I am really focusing on getting back to basics and staying there *for good* - I cannot take this up and down up and down on my scale and emotionally how not staying on track makes me feel. I feel so great when I AM ON TRACK and for *whatever reason* When I veer *off track* I feel defeated and frustrated. I go into panic mode and say that's it LIQUIDS tomorrow and it just seems to be a vicious pattern for me. I think a liquids day is fine to do every once in a while. The key for me is to get back on track and *staying there.* So I am really focusing hard on getting back on track - reeducating myself - and putting it all into ACTION. I feel like I am struggling lately, I know what has to be done - I *know* what to do!!!! I just have to (as NIKE says) JUST DO IT! Here we go ... Starting weight 250.5 Last week = 142 This week = not good! Loss this week = Total loss = Current BMI = have a great week! Stay focused & keep your eyes on that prize hugs, Britt

Good Morning Britt, I just made it in to work (6 am, what am I thinking?) Anyway, I know you are an early bird so I thought I would see if you had posted yet. I am sorry you are having a hard time staying on track, I am in the same boat. Unfortuately, my scale is showing my bad habits also, which is emotionally bad. Physically, I am feeling like crud too! Anyway, here are my numbers for the week: Starting weight: 273 Two weeks ago: 122 This week: 129 (In shame, I admit this) I too know what I need to be doing, I just can't seem to be putting it into action. Hugs and hopes for a better week, Christy

It is SO HARD Christy! We have a food addiction -- I am giving my *all* to get back on track for good You / we can do it - I step at a time hang in there my friend hugs, Britt

Good morning, Britt and everyone! I'm going to the supermarket in a few minutes! It will be the first time I've driven since my latest round of surgery. Exciting, huh? I attended part of an OH event on Friday and Saturday. If you get the chance to go to one, I found it interesting. The hotel rate was good and I enjoyed the speakers. My PS was one of them so I wanted to see him and the event coincided with my 1 week follow up appointment up there. I'm still VERY swollen but I'm starting to look human again. The bruising actually isn't as bad as I'd thought but I'm self conscious about how I look so I wear my sunglasses most of the time! Britt and Christy, I know what you mean about this being so hard. I had no idea how hard it was going to be to keep the grazing under control. It's so easy to eat bits and pieces all day long but the calories still add up. I did pretty well during our trip and was proud of my restaurant choices but I know I have to preplan and get busy. I know we can never be perfect but we each have to find a balance that allows us to maintain without the swings. I honestly think that hormones make it harder on women. Britt, I know you keep close track of your food input, etc. Do you see any sort of pattern? I've mentioned many times that when I lost weight on my own and kept great records I was able to see that one week a month I felt totally out of control regarding food (especially carbs) and I would gain at least 5 pounds. That would depress me and I'd eat more! Then, the hormone hell would be over and things would feel "easy" again. Every month I would tell myself not to overreact and to avoid the extra carbs but every month I seemed to fail. I literally felt driven to eat chocolate, tons of popcorn or whatever was available. When I feel that now, it scares the heck out of me. PS has enabled me to lose weight easier. I think your body allows those extra calories because it needs energy to heal itself but I know my current eating behaviors are not going to allow me to maintain weight once I'm healed so I have to get back on track. With that said, although I'm at the lowest weight I've been at in 30 years, I know that maintaining it may be totally unrealistic. Remind me of this when I'm whining about it in a few weeks!!!! Starting Weight: 245.25 This Week: 126.50 Total Loss: 118.75 BMI: 21.7 I hope everyone has a great week. Be conscious and responsible for your choices. Just last night I talked myself out of going downstairs to get a snack. The urge was terrible and I kept thinking about what I could snack on. I thank my cat for keeping me upstairs! He was so comfortable up against me that I didn't want to disturb him. The feeling eventually passed and I didn't have that snack. This morning I mentally patted myself on the back for avoiding temptation but I think the cat deserves the pat much more than I! One last comment in case I don't get back to the board today. I wanted to tell Valorie how much I admire her for how she has handled the horrible situation that has been dealt her. Friday night I read your update on my laptop while in northern Va. I was so touched. I wanted to reply but my current vision and my laptop do not get along at all and typing on that tiny thing is so frustrating to me but I can't tell you how many times I thought about you over the weekend. My husband knows all of you by name because I talk about you so much. At some point, we should try and have some sort of reunion! You are very strong, Valorie an an inspiration to all of us! CeCe

HI CeCe how was your outing? how neat that you got to attend an OH event I am hanging in there and working hard out it - my pattern is eat good, good, good, bad*something* bad bad bad food days follow - a rollercoater ride from hell I know I can do it - It is just challenging! but *anything* in life that is orth it - takes WORK and its WORTH the effort - I am shrug: I am focusing on CHANGES FOR LIFE - FOE MY HEALTH FOR ME AND MY FAMILY!!!! Glad you are feeling better maybe I should get a cat?????????????????? love & hugs, Britt

Sorry to hear that you are struggling with grazing Britt..... I know I am too... That has always been something I have struggled with... Have you tried the gum trick to help when you feel the need to munch? Sometimes it works for me and sometimes it doesn't.... well, anyway... Good luck this week... you are strong and I know we will see you posting a loss next week... you always come back strong.... I know you can stay focused.... Here are my stats... Starting weight = 309 Last week = 198 This week = 196 Loss this week = -3 Total loss = - 113 Have a great week everyone!!!! HUGS to ALL!!!!! Shawn M

I chew gum a lot - Right now I am trying to cut back on artifical sweetners - i've read some studies that the actulally make us hungrier .... So I am giving that a try. I am DETERMINED to do this right and REFUSE to go back to my old ways! congrats on the 3 pounds hugs, Britt

Hey Beautiful Britt!! I will join in-as I see some MOVEMENT again!! Go**** does mess with me now that the scale is naturally slowing down. I mean-I understand it HAS to for my own body-but we spend YEARS prior to the surgery getting READY for the scale to MOVE. We come out of surgery and it's all about the SCALE moving. We are focused-and over-focused on that reduction in weight!! Most of us are now at the time where we are standing on that bridge of weight loss. We are getting closer to the end of the bridge rather than at that BIG BANG start we had. It's a whole mind altering time for us. I know it is for me. I am being asked to change MY BRAIN from "I am all about LOSING this weight" to considering-"It's time to raise your eyes from the scale and look out at that big old world-start stabilizing soon-in the next 2-30 lbs-and move FORWARD!" WOW..That is HUGE for me. I am going to need lots of support and friends for this! How about all of you? Do you find yourself almost in an identity crisis mode?? Just wanted to vent a bit!! Mega Hugs and MUCH gratitude for all your support AND wisdom! Starting weight 383 Surgery Weight- 359 Last week = 170 This week = 168 (gasp-it moved) Loss this week = 2 lbs thus far Total loss- 215 Current BMI = 28 (I admit with others-this BMI thing bugs me! LOL)

Hey Miss RED! LOVE your avatar! I can relate to your post "I am being asked to change MY BRAIN from "I am all about LOSING this weight" to considering-"It's time to raise your eyes from the scale and look out at that big old world: congrats on your 2 pounds terrific great post thanks for venting

Hello everyone! Well Britt, I am sorry to hear that old habits snuck back on you one more time. It is so frustrating! Grazing is the downfall of many. Shawn, GREAT week! 3 lbs gone. You Rock! CeCe, nice to know that you are on your way back to "beautiful" even though you always were/are to us. Is this your final PS? Christy, if you must graze, eat grass! I guarantee that you won't gain weight from it. LOL Really, you know what to do, just make up your mind and do it! Therese, glad to see the scale moved for you. WOW, 160's! Did you ever imagine? Everyone else still to post, I hope you were all successful. If not, take it minute by minute and get back on track! Now me! Start weight: 349 Last week: 193.4 Today: 192.4 Loss: 1 lb!!!! I will take it! One more close to goal. I will see you guys later. I am leaving work early to turn in my inventory sheets to the adjustor. You guys pray for me to get the max pay out so we will have a good sized down payment for our new home, whenever or wherever it may be. Hugs, Valorie