Weekly Weigh In week of 3/24/08

Thank you Cece, you are so SWEET I've been crying on and off all day - I guess reality i****ting. Tonight Spencers *new* Mommy will come to meet hime and most likely take hime home. I am takingthe girls to my parents and Paul will be here with me. After I put it together, we can go get the girls, I know they are going to have a tough time too. It will be a rough week all around. I am working on feeling my feelings and NOT USING food to cope. So far so good! Talking myself through this!!! If I was doing the RIGHT THING as far as following the rules - I'd be OK - But I wasn't. That is why this **extra**weight *IS* coming off I am determined!!!! Glad you are slowwly coming out of swell hell you *sound* good and sounds like your pups are watching over you .... very sweet! Keep on recovering!!!!! Thinking of you!!! hugs, Britt

Britt I didn't express my concern about your dog. It seems so horrible. I know that it would make me an emotional wreck to have to part with one of mine. Like you I'd do what is best for the kids but it would really kick my butt. Let yourself cry, be sad, morn the loss. Don't eat. Exercise or do anything else to get you through. I've said a prayer for you and I'll say another this evening when the deed is being done. I know that you have found a wonderful home for Spencer. I'll bet that he will be a happy there. The beagle I took in from rescue lived with a woman by herself who was gone to work 10-12 hours per day and he stayed outside during that time. She wanted him to be happier. Sent him with us so that he would have a family and another dog and more time in the house. I know that it broke her heart and I want to let her look in on him sometimes. He has bonded beautifully with the other beagle (they were gone for 5 days and stayed together the entire time.) I want to let her see him snuggling with my son every night. He is happy with us and we are so blessed with him. I know that you are doing what is best for all.

Hi Trudy!!! ((((thank you)))) I have broken down a few times - especially as the time nears. I *know in my heart* that we are doing the right thing for our kids / kids that visit our home and for SPENCER! My kids LOVE him ... but cannot even pet him ...he growls and goes to bite - at Sofia's birthday party he went after one ofthe kids who trid to pet him. The kids are not aggressive to him ... he just associates little kids with less attention for him. its SAD But the new girl I found for him seems really excited and will give Spencer lots of adult attention. She also agreed to update us so we will know how they are adjusting. thanks for the prayers - my eyes are swollen from crying .... no make up - i look *lovely* this is HARD!!!!! This is going to be a tough week for all of us. So far - i am feeling the feelings and HAVE NOT turned to food! I am happy about that. hugs, Britt

Happy Spring everyone! Britt, I'm sorry about your doggy. I had to go through the same thing with 2 chihuahuas a few years ago. We loved them so much, but they just were a bad fit with our family. And we did everything we could to try to make it work, but it just didn't. And most recently, we had to find a new home for our kitty that we have had for 4 years. That was hard, hard, hard! And the guilt. It can be tremendous. But know you did what you needed to do for your family. It's ok to miss em. I haven't checked in for a couple weeks. It's been really hectic at work. I'm now back full time and it's the middle of our busy season, so I'm already working over 40 hours a week. But I'm feeling fine!!! We had a great Easter. I posted a couple of pics on my profile. We went to dinner at Red Lobster and it was great! Very relaxing. It was a kidless weekend, and it was nice to reconnect with my wonderful hubby. He's been so great standing by me through my whole ordeal. I got my J tube out today! So I'm finally nearing the end of my nightmare. I have been off tube feeds for 2 weeks and holding steady. So, here's my stats. Same as 2 weeks ago. Starting weight 202 Last week = 112 This week = 114 Loss this week = 0 Total loss = 88 Current BMI = 19.6

Kim - how exciting that you got your feeding tube removed. This surgery was the key for you. I am so glad to hear that you are doing so well!!! I looked at your profile the Esater pic of you and Henery is so CUTE tHANKS FOR YOUR KIND WORDS about my doggy - it was SO had ... but like you said I know we did th eright thing (as hard as it was) thankagain and congrats on maintaing your WEIGHT hugs, Britt

Kim, It's so good to hear from you! Happy to hear that J tube is out. How is "real" eating going? Any more pains or are the meds doing their job? Still expecting to have to have the gall bladder removed at some point? CeCe

Oh Britt I'm so sorry about your Spencer. We get so attached to our pets. Are lab Jynx was exhausted yesterday from the weekend up north and she didn't eat until 4:00 PM. I had a really nice Easter but ate way too much sugar and paid for it yesterday with a fibro flair-up. I had one off and on all last week, so exercise was not very good. So my goals for this week is to swim at least 3 times and weight train 2 times. Starting weight 298.5 Last week = 160.6 This week = 162.2 Gain this week = 1.6 Total loss = 136.3 Current BMI = 29.7 I'm staying in this range and not going above so maybe this is my weight. I'd like to stay in the 150's. Now that it is getting nicer here I'll be able to get outside more and hopefully take off a few more pounds. Everyone have a fabulous week. Deb

Hi Deb, Hope you are having a better week and are FOCUSED on doing the right thing for yourself! Glad to hear you had anice Esater with your family (other than the sugar) Thanks for your kind words about Spencer - it was so HARD and sad hugs, Britt

Still did ok this week, probably could have been better without all those homemade Easter eggs I ate. Planning on increasing the exercise. Starting weight 349 Last week = 182.8 This week =181.8 Loss this week =1 Total loss = 167.2 Phyllis

Phyliss, you are doing so great! Keep on going girl!!! Congrats on your 1 pound! hugs, Britt