Weekly Weigh In week of 2/25

Starting weight 286 Last week = 150 This week = 147 Loss this week = 3 Total loss = 139 Current BMI = 21.

Lianna - what a GREAT week 3 pounds! bravo~

Lianna, It's great to hear from you and WOW! 3 pounds! Did you change something to get such a great loss? I can't remember if we've heard from you since Christmas. If not, was it a hard holiday for you after your loss? How are you doing? CeCe

How am I??? Well here is a summary of the past two weeks..... Bad 2 weeks.... Bad scale..... Bad Me... Bad food... Bad Choices BAD....BAD... BAD.... I can't even bring myself to post the weight gain.... but I did gain over the past two weeks... We got our taxes back though, so hopefully with a little extra money in my pocket I can eat right for a week or two... Hubby did get laid off from his job and took another job making almost half the pay, so I don't know how long that extra money will even last now... So that how things are going with me... Looks like everyone else is doing well.... WTG everyone..... HUGS, Shawn M.

BUT ..... you still checked in! WTG Shawn! YOU, my friend can refocus and get back on track! hugs, Britt

Thanks Britt!!! You are so sweet... I know I can get back on track and I am working on it.... some days are good, some not so good, but I try and refocus every day.... Thanks again for being there for me... HUGs, Shawn M.

Shawn - You are not bad! I know for me - I can beat myself up so bad about my less than stellar choices and then I feel bad about myself and my answer to feeling bad about myself it so eat. Then I beat myself up for eating... You get the picture. You are not bad. You could have mad better choices and you still can. It isn't too late! The only way to fail is to quit trying and you haven't! Try a new strategy! Britt and I both did liquid for a few days. It is amazing after doing that - your pouch seems smaller - I definately could eat less. The way you deal with stress in your life is learned and worked for you at one time. Learning a new way to deal is hard. Give yourself a break. Pamper you a little. Take a bubble bath - preferably with sented candles lit in the bathroom - it feel so decadent! Read a fun book if you enjoy reading. Take a walk if it is warm. Not for exercise just because it is Feb and warm enough for a walk WOW (OK I live in Texas and it is like 80 today). Speed means nothings Perseverence means everything! Don't give up, Don't compare and Don't beat yourself up. You are amazing. Look what you have done already! Trudy

Thanks Trudy!!! I am so thankful to have you all around me to help me through those times when I don't make the right choices.... I wish I could go out and walk, but it is Feb in Michigan and it is 12 degrees outside today... LOL.... I am not generally a reader either, but if I find a really good book I can get myself to read it.... I did better today for breakfast and that is how I have to start... one meal at a time.... I am not beating myself up... matter of fact I have been doing so much better these past couple of weeks that it is unbelievable... even though hubby lost his job and money is tight, my mood is better than it has been in months... Thanks again for being there for me... I appreciate all that you say to keep my spirits up... HUGS, Shawn M.

Shawn, I have to ditto Trudy. You aren't bad! When I see/hear/read others being so negative about themselves, I want to hug them and tell them not to be so hard on themselves. Yet, I do it and I know we all do at times. It's a pattern we really have to work on because it keeps us in a rut - punishing ourselves. Shawn, your last two weeks may not have been good. You are under a lot of stress with your husband's work situation and maybe you feel guilty that you had to give up your job when you had to make the choice to TAKE CARE OF YOU! I can only imagine how much you are worrying right now but please, please remember to take care of yourself first. Don't stress out so much that you stop taking your meds or don't get enough sleep or focus so much on the current situation that you let depression take hold. Your family needs you to reassure them that you all are going to make it through this. Stay occupied! Do family things that don't cost money! If the weather is good take walks with the kids. Do something to get your mind off your problems and food! We care - keep posting and venting. Hey, look how inspiring Valorie is to us all right now! She felt she was losing control so she made a plan, followed it and lost SIX pounds in a week! I don't think I've ever lost 6 pounds in a week but you and I can make a plan and work it and see what success we'll have! Keep posting, Shawn, don't isolate! CeCe

Ok, Shawn, it's time for you to check in again! How are you feeling? Please take the time and effort to keep in close touch while you are feeling so vulnerable. We care and want to hear from you! CeCe