Weekly Weigh In week of 11/19

OMG CeCe , That is great news!!!! So many things to be thankful for but first and foremost is your health. You really scared us in the hospital! Congratulations to everyone for all their hard work week after week. I haven't lost as much as I wanted to but I am okay right now. I thought I would be fine in a size 8 and now that I am here I want to lose more. Is that normal? I didn't weigh myself this morning (I forgot) but I think I am right around 146, which I am thankful for. But now I want to be 135. Is that too thin? I have a pretty muscular build and I'm 5'7", 41 (almost 42), and have had 2 kids. I feel like I'm never going to be thin enough. But when I look in the mirror I still see a 200lb woman that looks gross. What do I do? I see my therapist every month and he is a great support. He has even told several of his patients about me and how I am a true success story. But sometimes I don't feel like that. Sometimes I feel like a big fat failure. Any words of wisdom out there? Please tell me everyone feels this way because I don't want to be the lone ranger out here! lol. Hugs, Susan

Susan, You are 3 inches taller than me so I know that you are at a great weight and you ARE A BIG SUCCESS story as your therapist feels. I think that being overweight has weighed us down in more ways than one and as the weight went up, our self esteems suffered more and more. I was always talking negatively to myself. It's a wonder I could even function as a social worker testifying in court and doing all I had to do. I was and am so HARD on myself. My husband gets so frustrated with me because if I EVER say something positive about myself (or anyone else does), I reply with a "yeah, but....." I think it will take us all a good while to adjust to our new selves. It will take us time to learn to be more gentle with ourselves. None of us would ever dream of saying or thinking the things about others than we do ourselves. Look how supportive everyone is here, yet, I'll bet if we were honest with ourselves, we've all been guilty of giving others support while downgrading every little victory of our own. And, in my case, making every little setback into a major mistake! Susan, could you even have imagined fitting into a size 8 a year ago? Want to fit into a size 6? Go to a store and pick up several different 6s and I'll bet you a dollar you will be able to fit in more than one!!! The one thing I've learned during this journey is that women's sizes are INSANE!!! Susan, all of you, and ME, let's challenge each other not to be so hard on ourselves! Those of you with younger children need to REALLY pay attention to this because kids pick up on that critical attiude! My mother, even though I love her, was ALWAYS seeing the negative and it is so programmed into me, it's hard to see the positives! Give your children the gift of seeing themselves as ENOUGH! CeCe

CeCe, thank you for your support. I do feel like a success sometimes but then I make the mistake of looking in the mirror naked. Ughh! Things jiggle and sag that aren't supposed to! I know I am too hard on myself and I am trying to change that but I have been this way forever and that is a long time! lol. I know most (if not all) of us are insecure and have a negative body image - I guess it comes with the territory. I agree with you in that we need to start feeling good about ourselves whether we want to or not. We all have come such a long way in our weight loss and now we need to continue working on our brains to catch up with our bodies. I do try really hard to portray myself as a confident, beautiful woman - especially to my children. Even though my daughter is 18, I know that how I feel about myself impacts how she feels about herself. I have taught her to stand up straight and keep her head up high even when she doesn't feel like it. And she seems to be very confident in her physical self now. By the way, I do have several size 6 pants/skirts and they fit. I just want to be a size 6 all the time! Guess I have some more work to do but I know that day will come. Thank you so much for your encouragement and support. You really made me feel so much better. Hugs, Susan

I'm back to work today! So far, so good. I would still rather be home though! Here are my stats: Starting weight 234 Last week = 140 This week = 134 Loss this week = 6 (That's never happened brfore!) Total loss = 100 --Yeah! Current BMI = 22.8 Britt, I absolutely love the idea of the run on Thanksgiving morning! I'm proud of you! Wanda

Thanks Wanda! I am EXCITED about my TURKEY TROT ***** SIX POUNDS!!!!****** Holy MOLY! Look at that BMI soooo proud of you! Have a great 1st day back! how did everyone react? hugs, Britty

Wanda, BOTH of u**** the CENTURY CLUB this week! Yea, us! Now, I have a challenge to get to your WONDERFUL BMI! You and I are the same height so I have a new goal!!!! CONGRATS! CeCe

I have the week off and am so enjoying a relaxing morning browsing on OH. I have had a really good week. I am heading to Buffalo, NY to spend Thanksgiving w/ my sister. I am actually going to leave tomorrow. I am looking forward to seeing my Brother who will be arriving tomorrow night as well. I haven't seen him since June. He moved to NY City after graduating college here in Ohio to go to graduate school. My Parents and my BF will be arriving on Thursday so it will be terrific to have the whole family together. I am also making a sugar free pumpkin pie! Here are my Stats for the week: Start weight: 268 Last week: 154 This Week: 151 Loss this Week: 3 Total Loss: 117 BMI: 25.1 Yipeee! My weight finally seems to be moving again hopefully it keeps it up. I had a one point made it to 152 and then my hormones went totally crazy. Everyone have a Happy Thanksgiving!!! Hugs, Kim

WOW! Kimberly, 3 pounds in one week! You'll leave even 152 behind soon but how much lower do you want to go? I'm short so I can go lower than some of you TALLER people on here!!! CeCe

Thanks for the relpy. I hope you are feeling better form your surgery! I really don't want to lose that much more. I am 5'5 and would like to get to 140. I figure then I will have some wiggle room. I do really try not to do the comparison thing but I would also love to get into a size 10. Right now I am still in a 12/14, esp in jeans still a 14. I went jean shopping yesterday and ugh I tried on tons of jeans and it was really hard to find any that fit. I guess my body shape is just not meant for most. To get them over my hips and not be too tight on my stomach (aka be able to zip then up all the way) definitely needed the 14 but then the waist totally gaped in the back. Oh well I finally found a pair at the Gap called curvy but of course they are too long so now I need them hemmed. Have a great day! Hugs, Kim

Kimberly, Jeans seem to be the most difficult thing to find a great fit! Being short, most jeans seem to come up right to my RIBS! And, I've never had much of a waistline but my husband told me today that I have an hour glass figure now - hope it's not just the swelling! Are you trying jeans that have a little stretch to them? I like them better because they seem to look better on me and have a slight give to them. Go to a store with a huge variety and just keep trying or maybe there's a website to discover what brand fits what type of body! We are deserve a great fitting jean for our new bodies, don't we? Anybody got any ideas/favorites? Kimberly, I'd love just that ONE inch that you have on me at 5 ft 5! CeCe