Asking for help from my friends

I'm at a crossroads. I have to decide on a revision. I lost 5 lbs. this last week and am now below 100. I stayed home from work today, too weak. I called my doc, will get some blood tests today and follow up with her tomorrow. I'm starting to feel myself get depressed. And I'm already on anti-depressants. Henry says I am not happy anymore, and never smile. I feel no joy or hope. The bottom is near. I fear dying. I actually wonder how much my body can take. I fear I won't wake up and my kids won't have a mother. I'm scared. Please, if you are the praying type, pray for strength for me, for wisdom for me and my drs. to make the right decisions, and for a way to pay for any needed medical intervention I may need. I feel like I have no control and I'm losing this battle. I'm scared.

Kim, You are definitely in my prayers... My thoughts go out to you... I cried reading your post.. I never would have dreamed anyone that I knew would go through what you are going through. I am sorry you have to go through a revision but I hope that it works for you and you can stabilize your weight loss.... Please keep us posted on how you are doing... Love and Hugs, Shawn M.

(((( Kim)))) My heart and prayers go out to you! below 100 pounds is very scary - I am glad that you have decided to go for the revision. When should this all take place? I'm guessing SOON???? Please keep us posted - we are praying for you BIG TIME! hUGS, Britt

Kim, I wish there was something I could do to help you feel better and gain some weight. I hate that you are going through this! Please try to take care of yourself and try to get in as much protein and iron as you can. Please know that I am here for you if you need to talk. Call me anytime - (843) 364-0995. Hugs and prayers, Susan

You have every right to be concerned and I think a revision is probably going to be the right choice for you. You have given a good valiant effort to turn this around. I think if you and your doc decide a revision is necessary you should do it soon while you still have enough strength to get through the surgery. I'm sorry that you are going through this. Keep us informed.

Kim, I cannot even imagine what you are going through. Your dream has literally turned into a nightmare. I'm sure none of us ever even dreamed of such an outcome. I have no idea what happened in your case but I can't help but feel that something during or after your procedure went terribly wrong and I believe the surgeon owes you a revision or should at least consent to an exploratory procedure to at least see if there's something he could do. I've never been one to seek an attorney in situations where I feel I've been mistreated and I know you respect your surgeon but isn't this really STRANGE? You know, I've seen Dr. LoMonaco (not sure if that's the spelling) post on the plastic surgery and even the main board, do you think you could ask him if he's ever heard of such a case? I know you are at the end of your rope, especially having to try and come up with money for the revision. Listen to your heart and do what feels right to you. I'm so sorry you are suffering like this. CeCe

Kim, I will definately keep you in my thoughts and prayers for everything you are going through! You have tried so much to keep on top of it. Please keep us updated! Hugs, Kim

Kim, I can't imagine how hard this is for you. I think you need to make the decision that is best for you and your family.. and if that is a revision, so be it. You want to be happy and most importantly, healthy. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs, Leah

Kim, You are definately in my thoughts and prayers. I ask God to give your doc's the wisdom to know what is best in your situation. I pray for you to have peace with any decision made. Just a question to go with what CeCe said, have you done any research on the MGB and this type of situation happening? Are there others going through the same thing or are you an isolated case? What does you surgeon think? I think I would get another opionion from another surgeon like ASAP. Just see if there could have been a problem with the surgery. Just something to ponder. I know you have enough to deal with but maybe there is help for the monetary part if there was something wrong. Sending positive thoughts your way. Hope you feel better and summon the energy needed to handle your life. Valorie

Oh Kim, my DH and I were just talking about you the other night. Just like everyone else, when will the revision take place? Best of luck to you will lotz of prayers.