Freak out.

So last night I think I had my first mini freak out. I've lost 88 pounds so far, and all i can think is that I'm not going to lose any more. I feel selfish thinking that and should be appreciative at the amount I've lost. I know its only been 3 months, but I just got scared. I haven't even platueaed yet, and I thought it was kind of funny that I freaked out. Anyway, I need someone to tell me I'm going to loss the other 100 pounds.

You will lose the other 100 pounds......... Keep doing what you are doing, because you are doing awesome so far, and trust me by no time you will be down at your goal weight.

I like to read other peoples profile. I always find it interesting that so many people in the early months thought that they were not going to be successful and then months or weeks later they have surpassed their goals! Many of us get concerned that we will be one of the people that the surgery doesn't work on. I have a friend that says out loud "Get behind me Satan! You are not robbing me of my joy!" every time the stinking thinking starts. She swears that it works. Someone else suggested wearing a rubber band around your wrist. Whenever a negative thoought pops us--just SNAP IT! Pretty soon your mind won't wander into the negative thinking. You've done great so far. Just remember that plataues do happen and it WILL happen to you eventually. Expect it so you don't freak out when it happens. We don't like them but they are normal. You are doing great. Hang in there.

You will reach your goals... day-by-day. 88 lbs!?! That's freakin' amazing. I swear I plateau every other week. The only thing I can do is trust that I'm doing everything right. You will lose another 100 l bs... for sure!

You are doing awesome.... I wish I could say that I have not plateaued.... it seems like I hit a stall every month for a couple of weeks... this last one has lasted almost a month now... YOU WILL LOSE THE OTHER 100 POUNDS!!!!! You are doing a great job, keep up the good work... Shawn M.

you guys are awesome. have you ever had one of those days though where you spoke too soon? I started dry heaving again today. I did it a week and a half ago, but the doctor said to get rid of the cold I have, and now thats its gone I can't stop dry heaving. I'm getting to the point where I can't eat anything and I can't even drink water. I start dry heaving not 5 mintues later, and you'd think it would come out if its still in there, but its not. It passes through. I don't know what to do anymore and it's really wearing on me mentally. this is the reason why i've lost 88 pounds and haven't hit a plateau. I keep vomitting nothing and can't eat or drink. I'd much rather be normal and plateau like all of you. This has taken all of my energy.

Miranda, are you sure you don't have another stricture? It sounds that way. I had dry heaves for 5 hours straight one night. Every muscle in my body hurt the next day. Muscle I didn't even know I had in my neck or back or stomach! I also had uncontrollable chills and shakes. I even blacked out at one point on the bathroom floor. So I understand how miserable you are. I know your spirits must be so down after going through everything you've gone through. I'm so sorry. Please try to keep your spirits up. It won't be this way forever. That is the way I felt the first three months. Like I would be miserable for the rest of my life. It won't. You will get through this. Please keep us posted and do follow up with your doctor if you haven't already.

And thats so how I feel. "Like I would be miserable for the rest of my life." I just want it to end so badly. And it's hard to think of the future when I can only live one day a t a time with this. It really sucks.

You need to see the Dr and make sure you are not dehydrated from being sick. That will make you have dry heaves over everything also. Call him right away! Sandy

I called my doctor yesterday and he said to go back to liquids and if I had a problem today, then to go in his office. I can't just leave work, or call into work anymore since I'm on the verge of getting fired for my absences from the complications I've had. I think I've narrowed down whats making me sick though. I don't have a stricture or Stenosis. Everything is going down fine, and if it wasn't I would have vomitted foamies or food or something besides nothing. I'm not dehydrated at all, I'm peeing like a race horse. There's only two things I think it might be, one my urine is extremely dark and my bowel movements are very light = liver function problems. However, my liver was very inflammed after I got my gallbladder out, so it might just be left over from that. Last week, I took a bunch a pills for a cold, on top of my prilosec, birth control pill, 2 multi vitamins, and 2 calcium. I didn't eat before that, and I kept getting sick, and I never took those pills on the weekend, and never got sick then. This week I was alright on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday, but Thursday was the worst. I think somehow I must get better over the weekend from the pills, and when I start the week and try to take the pills again because I feel better, I end up feeling crappy, and dry heaving. So, today again I stopped taking all the pills, drank gatorade and campbells chicken noodle soup broth and some saltines and have been fine. So maybe it's me being extremely sensitive to the pills I was taking. I've just become too sensitive to vicodin, and Tide laundry detergent. Everything is different. I can't think of one thing thats not different. It's weird trying to relearn everything. My skin is having a funny reaction and so are my insides as to what I'm putting in my mouth. I honestly don't think its the food, the sugar content (less than 14g per serving) the fat less than 4g per serving. I think its the pills. So then I beg to ask the question, How am I supposed to get my calcium, multi-vitamin, birth control, and ulcer medicine without pill form if I'm too sensitive?