Surgery the 14th, 3 full days left!

With surgery only about 3 days away, I find myself getting nervous. Sometimes I am OK then other times the nervousness is pretty bad. Honestly, I am not nervous for myself but for my 3 1/2 year old son. He is one of the main reasons I decided that this surgery is a must, he deserves a better me. However, he is the reason that I am so nervous, I worry about not making it through surgery and not being there for him. See, he was adopted 3 years ago>my life was not complete until he arrived. I just cannot leave him, he needs me but he needs an energetic healthy me. Please pray for us!

Christy, just keep in mind why you are doing this. Nerves are normal. It's that wonderful life with you son that will make it all worth it.

Christy, Please know that you are not alone in the feelings of not being there for you son. I too am having the surgery, just one day past your date. I am nervous that I won't be there to spend my days with my 2 boys, but they want and need a better everything Mommy, and this surgery is what will get us to where we need to be to accomplish that. If there was any concern from the pre-op testing that was needed before you could have the operation, someone would have put up a red flag. Know that many will be praying and thinking of you and that the Man upstairs wouldn't let anything happen to a person who loved enough to adopt a little boy to give him a better life. :angel: God Bless and I'll be looking for another post, post -op, when you are up to it. Lisa :wave:

Christy, What you are feeling is completly normal. We are all going thru the ups and downs, the nerves... Am I doing the right thing ?? How can I be sure I am ?? Myself, I was fine until November hit. I've been second guessing myself and my drs. But I always ask myself one question... Do I want to exist for a couple more years, and do the best I can ?? Or do I want to LIVE for 20+ years and be the best mom, grammie, wife ( soon to be ), and most importantly the BEST ME I can be ?? We all chose to LIVE and to be here for our children and grandchildren. Just make sure to do all that the dr tells you to do. Sip tha****er, keep up with your protein, take your vitamins, and walk. You Will be great, and YES you will be here for your little one. I will keep both of you in my prayers. We are all here for you Christy, and we are all just a message board or email away !! Huggs & Blessings, Lori

I'm going through the same thing. In fact I was just talking to my husband about wondering if I should back out... I won't, but it is crossing my mind. I've now lost 14 pounds since starting my liquid diet 11 days ago... starts to make you think maybe you can do it on your own this time ... Then I remembered I still have a little more than 100 to lose, so it's not realistic to think this time would be any different. I think it's so normal to worry about our families if something would happen, but reality is, we're more likely to leave our kids earlier if we don't have surgery. Our weight is a lot more dangerous than the surgery. I'll be praying for you (and for me). Hang in there!

Christy, Don't worry. This is one of the reasons they make you do all the pre-op testing, to make sure you will live through the proceedure. I am sure you will be fine. And just think in 3 months from now you will be feeling so much better, then in 6 months, you will feel really good, and by the time a year has passed you will wonder why you waited so long to have the new life you have now. We are truly blessed to be able to have this tool to use for the rest of our lives. Hang in there you will be fine!! And I will say a prayer for you! ((Hugs)) Sheryl

We have the same date - yipee! You will do just fine! I'll be praying for you. Before you know it, you'll be home with that little man! *hugs*

Thanks so much for everyone's support. The worst of the Nervousness has passed again. However, as the moods and feelings come and go, I try to look back over everyone's comments and realize I am not alone. This is something I have to do, a risk I must take in an opportunity for a better life. I missed my opportunities to have biological children (not that I regret that at all after adopting my son), I dont want to risk this opportunity which may not come again. I know that the risk of staying so over weight far outweigh the risks of the surgery. I have have to keep remembering that. It is funny how once you are a parent, you are no longer really scared for yourself but for your child or children. I have not been nervous or scared for myself at all. Lot's of thoughts and prayers to everyone for a successful and uneventful surgery. Got to love the protein and liquids.