Last Night

Dh and I were going over for the millionth time what I am going through and afterwards what to expect (diet wise and such) well I had a huge feeling of dread come over me. After reading some of the other posts I am to assume that this is totally normal. Today the feeling is gone and I am back to the positive.....in some ways I feel like I'm waiting to give birth to a new baby! Michelle

I think it's extremely normal!! It better be, because I have those feelings too... I remember reading one woman's profile where she said she was so scared, right up to being wheeled into the surgical room that she almost got off the table and went home! One thing that really helps me is that it's really hard to find people *****gret their surgeries! I realize that there are some who do... but by far, the vast majority say that even with any complications they may have had, they would do it again in a heartbeat. I really think that speaks volumes... So yes, anxiety, second-guessing, etc is to be expected and perfectly normal. I'm trying to remind myself of that every day! Marilyn

I have been having that same feeling as you. But for me it's a day by day thing, some days it's there and some it's not. From what I've read on the VA board, it is completely normal. I've seen so many posts regarding this very thing I can't even tell you how many I've seen in the last year while I've been waiting. Personally I feel like I am getting ready to be reborn, and I guess in some sense I am. But it's still hard when that feeling comes. I've noticed something for me though, while I am scared to death when these feelings come I have yet to even once thought about not having this surgery. Sometimes I wonder why I'm doing it but I know that it needs to be done and that keeps me from thinking about cancelling it at all. Weird huh? My surgery is the same day as yours so I'll be on the losing side right along side you. Blessings to you and all the others on their paths. Raven

I'm right there with you. I have less than a week and some moments I find myself literally shaking with trepidation and other moments where I don't feel anything, not excited, not scared...It's a little bit of an up and down roller coaster that I don't think I really expected. I've had surgery before (not quite so major) and thought that would help alleviate some of the nerves since I know a little what to expect. I think I'm thinking more about the "after" then the actual surgery and a little I think I'm in mourning for food. I've been on my low carb diet for two months with very little cheating and kind of feel like I'm missing my last chance to dive into the foods that I just love to eat. I have to keep telling myself that, except for sweets, I'll probably eventually get to have bites of the stuff I love and it will satisfy me. Anyway it's a huge change and not a gradual change, two hours in the hands of my surgeon and bam everything is different, makes it a little scary. So it's wonderful to see that I'm not the only one on an emotional yo yo (not that I wi**** on anyone but it's nice to not be alone). Corinna Q