Does it seem "real" yet?

I know some of you are scheduled early in the month, so it probably seems very real to you by now... but I'm on the 14th, so to me it still feels "out there" and just not quite real yet.... I had my pre-op teaching class today, where they go over how to do the 2-week liquid diet, etc (I start mine on Oct 31) and that sort of made it sink in a little (will probably sink in a little more on Halloween night when I'm trying to melt my kid's candy over the jackolantern in the hopes that will make it count as a "liquid") Ok, kidding... but I totally understand you guys who have mentioned how your emotions are going all over the place. I'm not freakign to the point where I'm in danger of running out into traffic in my skivvies...(trust me, that would not be a positive experience for anyone involved) ...but I am really all over the place emotionally... between being convinced I won't make it through the surgery, to not even being worried, to wondering if I need to get a will made out, to thinking I'm over-reacting, to wondering if I'm really doing the right thing (even tho I believe I am) to wondering when the men in little white coats are going to show up and wrestle me into a straightjacket... Yes, I'm exaggerating... the biggest thing is that it still just doesn't seem real to me... and I'm a little scared, but not too scared but... (there I go again) ... geeesch! ...if I'm already like this, what am I going to do when it does finally hit me? I just hope it happens on a light traffic day... Marilyn