Surg date is the 21st. Does anyone have thoughts of failure?

Hey yall! The title says it all. I have been having thoughts of "what if this doesnt work?" I know it will, I will be successful. Maybe its because I have not succeded(sp?) before. Am I crazy for rearranging my insides? Is this really what God would want me to do? I'm sure most of my hesitance is because any other surg I have been told I "have to" do it. This I am choosing on my own. I know that I will be healthy and get to keep up with my son! prolong my life! I am excited and nervous all at the same time. Anyone else feel this way or am I kookoo? Leann

I had the same thought and I dreamed that the surgeon changed his mind at the last minute. I think this is normal and it seems like next monday is taking forever to get here. I'm just ready to get it over and scared that I might have complications. Last my son said that he was worried about me, he's only seven . I talked to him about this months ago, I thought he forgot. I guess he senses that something is about to happen. That worried me that he said that. I think sunday we will spend the entire day together without anybody else. Everything will work out just fine. Reneka

Thank you for your reply its good to know that I am not alone feeling this way. I think my big concern is how my son will be. He is almost 4 so he does not understand much. But I fear leaving him more than anything. I know that God has great plans for me and my family. I know I will do this and be successful. Been working on the negative self talk! I had preop appt today and start clear liqueds only on Sat am. Colace tomorrow am. I will keep you in my prayers also! Leann

Good luck on your surgery.....my prayers are with you.....margaret

Well it's about time someone had the nerve to voice what I have been feeling I thought that I was the only one that felt that way about "me having my insides rearranged".....my husband is really concerned about me having this surgery I too have too young sons ...5 & 6....and i tell u I do not think i could live without those little guys in my life....I know u understand.....I just pray that this is what God has for me I beleive that he knows that i can be more powerful now that i have been humbled so know is the time for me to move forward in my life as well as my spirit...this weight is truly a hinderance and I can't wait to be on the losing side...even though i have that little fear..I will put my faith in my father in heaven and trust that his will be done in our lives...by the way i have my open RNY on the 22nd....good luck and God bless u..margaret

You are NOT losing it or crazy for how you are feeling. It is so normal to be questioning yourself and worried about the outcome. But, God has His hands on all that you do and if it wasn't in His will for you to have this surgery, you wouldn't have come this far. I will keep you in my prayers and will think of you as I am going through it the same day as you! Talk to you soon!!! Lisa