Poor Choices

Hello my November brothers & sisters... I feel like I have been making poor choices and I don't know how to stop myself. I don't over eat. I just keep reaching for the wrong things. From pizza to french fries. Sometimes I will take a bite of something sweet. I am sooo scared I am going back to my old habits. Have any of you gone through this and if so what are you doing???? I feel like I need help!!!! Jennifer

Jennifer- Hello! Yup on the same boat. Halloween has been tortorous for me!! I finally had to "hide" the candy in the cupboard. Yes I know exactly where it is but it's not staring me in the face. I ate nowhere near what I would have did eat a year ago but still... a piece here a piece there. Never enough to make me sick but I was still eating it. I woke up Sunday Am and said I did not come this far to do this to myself. I have gone 4 days without candy. I did have one piece today and I felt naseous afterwards which was a good thing! It's hard because if I have the opportunity, I will usually eat it. I just try not to have the temptation. It is so true we had surgery on our stomachs not on our brains. I look at old pictures of myself and see how far I have come. I just cannot go back down that road. Now with all that said, don't feel like you need to completely deprive yourself either otherwise you WILL go If you want french fries, have a few, don't make it a staple of your diet, don't even eat a whole serving if you don't want. As for pizza, have a piece, not every day but once in awhile is okay. We had this surgery to have some normalcy in our lives. Normal sized people eat french fries and pizza. Don't beat yourself up for minor discrepancies, just don't make then daily habits. Janet

Thanks so much Janet! I'm upset that not as many people post on this forum anymore! Have a great weekend! Jen

Jen- I know what you mean about the posting. It has slowed down but it's also because we are out there, not hiding behind our computers anymore. Life sure is busy these days, for me anyways. I read on to how you were doing yesterday, sounds like you were doing well. Me, well last night I fell a bit and had a couple of mini snickers bars. UGH!!! Today has been better so far, then again it's only lunchtime! Late night is ALWAYS my roughest time. I know I can do this, and so can you. As for the person, 10 years later looking at banding, you have to remember that 10, even 5 years ago, people were having this surgery done, and were never told really what to eat, hence all the dieticians and such now. Alot of people had this surgery, lost the weight, and then enver changed their eating habits and regained it all back. Plus the actual procedure changed quite a bit in the past 10 years. They used to just staple the stomach instead of completely dissecting it and the staplpes would often come out giving the person a "whole" stomach again. Well good luck, I hope that together we can be strong. Janet

I did really well last night (11/11/05). Well.. I did well the whole day. I didn't snack and I stayed full. I went to bed early... like 9:30. For some reason I was tired. I did work out and today I feel great. I have had 40 oz of liquid so far and I had some left over chicken for breakfast along with some grapes. I get off work soon and I am going to do some yard work before my football game begins. Then I will have a South Beach Diet Pizza. Have you had them? They are great, very filling and high in protein. I went to the grocery store last night and bought everything I needed to make sure I stay full of protein and I will not stray! Your right... my mother's cousin had WLS years and years ago and then she had Roux N Y this past year... they had to re-do it. She had gained all of it plus more back. I don't want that to happen to me. That is why I come to this site for support. Almost every day when I am at work I log on some time to check this site out. It helps me focus on what I am doing or need to do to get back into the swing of things. Hope ya'll are having a great weekend. Enjoy your day. Thanks so much for the advice and support. It is always appreciated from me! Jen

I understand where you are coming from! I just read a post from someone who had RNY i***** and is now considering having a lap band on top of that. I really really don't want to be in that situation in 10 years!!! But, I keep thinking to myself if I keep making bad choices, that is going to be me! I think just being aware of the poor choices and being willing to make the change is the first step in the right direction!! I have been very lax on food journaling lately and I think that makes it easier for me to put food in my mouth that I otherwise wouldn't because I don't have to write it down on paper or think about it later!!! I'm going to get out my pouch rules for dummies and follow that to the tee!! I still have 10 pounds to loose and don't want to jeopardize all this hard work I have done over the past year, just for some stupid Halloween candy or a cookie or what ever else I may stuff in my mouth without really thinking!!!! Good luck to you!! WE CAN DO IT!!!!! A

I know we can do it. The first step is that I realize it is happening. I am doing well today. I am just going to take it one day at a time. I brought my lunch to work with me so I wouldn't go home and be tempted. I brought a turkey, cheese low carb wrap with some yogurt. I have drank about 30 oz of decaf tea so far. I also have 2 bottles of water to drink after lunch... around 2 pm and then I will treat myself to a few Quaker Chili & cheese baked quakes rice cakes. MMMM they are good. For Dinner I am cooking chicken breast and green beans possibly a little salad too. I have been exercising at Curves every other day and I think that is what is helping me not gain weight. I still have about 60 pounds to lose... thats a lot! I needed to lose atleast 200 when I started this journey. So 60 pounds... I can do it. I just need you guys to encourage me and let me know what I am going through is NORMAL! I feel like I am a WLS flunky and I don't want or need to feel this way. I couldn't imagine a few years down the road and needing to have this surgery again. I don't want that. I have done so well and my family is so proud of me. Today the HEAD HUNGER is driving me nuts but I have not givin in!!!!! I am looking forward to lunch however... 25 minutes. This website has helped me forget about it for a while. Encouragement is what we all need. Support too! Thanks so much.... Jen

Jennifer, I don't think you are alone. But like Janet said, as long as you don't make it a daily choice. Having a fry every once in a while is ok. Having them every day is bad. I refer to my pre-op classes material to remind me of what I should be eating every once in a while. I too am making bad choices. And as soon as I realize it, I try to do better with my next meal. On the board slowness, I agree it has slowed down but it is only as strong as our members make it. It all starts with me (you). I started the question of the week post for the same reason, I wanted to see more activity here. I think that now is when the real work is begining with us. Maintaining and trying to not slip into old habits is going to take alot of support. And I think posting your issue will help others realize that they are not the only ones dealing with them. So keep posting your own questions and concerns. You never know who you are helping that is going through the same thing. Melissa

You are so right! I hope this does help someone else besides myself. I know there are a lot of lurkers that read but never post! TGIF!!!!!! Jen

I can definitely relate!!! Every day is a new battle but the good the thing is, we have eachother for support and encouragement!! God Bless! Annette