Still have a "fat" head--anyone else?

I'm finally within 4 pounds of my personal goal weight. Weighing in now at 144--thats 121 pound loss! You can check out my profile for pics and recent update. I'm happy with the results but I am going to post-op therapy groups monthly at Pennsylvania Hospital. This group works on my "head"---the part that the surgeon did not fix! I don't know if anyone else still has "fat" thoughts while sitting alone but after going to this group, I see that I'm not the only one here in Philadelphia that feels this way. What are your thoughts?

I have mostly issues with picking out clothes, I reach for the bigger sizes and then .....NEWS FLASH! IT AIN"T GONA FIT!!!! LOL I sometimes don't "feel" thin. I look in the mirror and see myself and I can't believe it is me. I see people that weigh the same and wear the same size as me, but I don't see myself being that thin. I know it is crazy. The mental thing is hard to get over. I see now why some people don't need to have this surgery. I know someone who had an eating disorder before she had surgery and now she weighs 60lbs and has a permanent feeding tube in. She still sees herself as fat and continues to make herself throw up. Melinda

Hey, I'm with ya! I am also 4 lbs from my goal weight of 135. I see the clothes size I am wearing, I see the weight on the scales, but I forget. In a crowd I still will suck in to let someone get passed me. I still get nervous about sitting in the corner...will I fit? My sister had the surgery 2 1/2 years ago...she says it gets better. Just wanted to let you know, I can completely identify with you. Congratulations, and God bless!

I think we are often so ill-prepared for the changes that weight loss inflicts on our lives. Things that I have had to deal with that no one prepared me for: 1. loss of friends who became threatened by my new size 2. anger that surfaced... boy I don't take no mess anymore... things I would have let slide just don't anymore 3. depression - one therapist put it this way to me... you have been self-medicating depression for about 40 yrs.... it kept it under control... but suddenly you stopped.... WHAM.... major depressive episode 4. Hormonal fluctuations and the havoc they wreak!!!! Boy those periods are back with a vengance!!! 5. Prolonged time to recover... expected to up and at em in 8 - 12 wks.... took about 6 months out of my life and still have not reached homeostasis. So yes... being part of a group and/or seeing a therapist ... or at the very least having somewhere to vent/ express whatever is essential during this trip we are on!!! B

I totally agree!!! I have become a picture-aholic, as that is when I can see that YES I have lost tons of weight!!! I do NOT see it in the mirror, although, when I look in the mirror, I think "who is that woman looking back at me" I still have "fat" days and "fat" moments...hope that gets better!!! at almost 10 months out, I am findnig that I'm hungry more, and it has become more of a struggle for me. I hate to say it, but it was so easy at first, I was just never hungry!! And I have been craving chocolate, and it hurts my tummy. Congratulations on such a successful journey!! Take Care, Debi